Felicia* Stay TRUE to my FIRST LOVE =)

2009-08-21T09:51:00.006+08:00

I am part of the "Fellowship of the Unashamed."

The die has been cast.

I have stepped over the line.

The decision has been made.

I am a disciple of Jesus Christ.

I won't look back, let up, slow down, back away, or be still.

My past is redeemed, my present makes sense, and my future is secure.

I am finished and done with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, chintzy giving, and dwarfed goals,

I no longer need pre-eminence, prosperity, position, promotions, plaudits, or popularity.

I now live by presence, lean by faith, love by patience, lift by prayer, and labor by power.

My pace is set, my gait is fast, my goal is Heaven, my road is narrow, my way is rough, my companions few, my Guide reliable, my mission clear.

I can not be bought, compromised, deterred, lured away, turned back, diluted, or delayed.

I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity, or meander in the maze of mediocrity.

I am a disciple of Jesus Christ. I must go until Heaven returns, give until I drop, preach until all know, and work until He comes.

And when He comes to get His own, He will have no problem recognizing me.

My colors will be clear.

2009-08-19T03:39:00.003+08:00

The economy of the Kingdom of God is quite simple

Every new step in the Kingdom cost us everything we have gain to date

Everytime we cross a new treshhold it cost us everything we now have

Every new step may cause us all the reputation and all the security we have accumulated up till that point

It cost us our life

A disciple is always ready to take the next step

If there is anything that characterizes christian maturity

It is that willingness to become a beginner again for Jesus Christ

It is a willingness to put our hand in His and say

' God, I am scared to death but I will go with You because You are the Pearl of Great Price'

- John Wimber

If you want to see the visible results of this level of demonic power respond to your authority

you got to do the hard work of preparation- fasting and praying

- Dr. A.R. Barnard

I believe in hardwork and in paying the price.

2009-08-16T01:58:00.007+08:00

Haha I truely have no idea what happen to the photo on my blog but it seem to have disappeared.. but oh well, I am not really going to bother about it and hope it re-appears or something... hahaha.. got better things to do at the moment..

Anyway, it was really quite funny when I scrolled down my own blog and look through my achieves to see all the old photos and all the funny things I wrote last time.

Amused by them myself.

haha! we all look so different! Saw photos of Marcus and Howteng when they were younger. They have all really grown up man. Man and Woman of God now(:

Anyway, I was just munching on the subway cookies that mel passed to me earlier.. it truely saved my stomach. HAHA. Food is truely my greatest stronghold. When I go to Heaven, I would definately ask God why did He made me this way- I dont't eat to live, I live to eat!!(: (:

Anyway some people really blew me away..

Firstly, it is Jerome. It was really so awesome talking to you on msn the other day and finding out that you were listening to Pastor's sermon cd on the 7 things I hate about christianity when you were taking a break from your study. Many people would have played games watch some shows or something. But you really hungered for the word of God! You are indeed radical!(: All the more when you had exams the next day. It really spoke much about you and your value system! Way to go!!(: Keep doing all that you are doing, keep hungering for more of God and his word. You will definately grow!

Seeing Jason See making a decision to use the best years of his life to serve God really touched me..(: days ago, I recieved a message from Jason telling me how he decided that he wanted to put his focus on God and believe that as he stays faithful to God, God would definately stay faithful to him.

While his peers in school and life are trying their best to succeed in life, get girlfriends and have fun all day long, this man decided to make a stand in his life.

Gotta think, he is already 19 this year. Normal for him to want to achieve more in life. But yet, he lives by his convictions.

Inspiring.

Not only that but I told him a few days ago to do a card for Jorine and he made it really nice! Put in so much effort drawing the card, choosing patterns that Jorine loved and drew them on. You gotta see it for yourself when Jorine recieved the card.

It was a priceless emotion.

You changed a life(:

Because you cared enough.

Truely proud to be leading you..

Stand guys, STAND!

2009-06-07T02:18:00.004+08:00

Sometimes the way God moves can really blow you away.

Constantly connecting in the forth dimension

while living in the third dimension is the way to go(:

Changed some lives today(:

Pastor's Sermon on Faith was really powerful!

Sat in service sucking in everything that was preached(:

Gave me insights to my own life too!

I am sure it is the word for so many people this season.

D13 is growing!

God indeed you are faithful.

I love my life(: Do you?

Strength!

2009-05-05T03:09:00.000+08:00

Have you read Dom's blog?

If you haven't, read it!(:

http://www.dom3.blogspot.com/

I am inspired!

2009-05-05T02:15:00.005+08:00

Its so funny when I see the people around me living their lives

just looking for the next sales up on the streets

talking all day long about shopping and the latest fashion in town

this is all good and I was just the same

but I have found something greater

and would bring me greater joy

The fun of shopping brings you the happiness

that you have gotten something new

Oh, That feeling is awesome, but it never last!

Over the months, I have learnt that girls sometimes

splurge all their money just to keep that happiness ongoing

This happiness is addictive.

It really isn't about the shopping or the new cloths or hippest jeans in town.

Its really for that moment of happiness.

But when the hype dies down,

they splurge again just to feel happy all over again

Sad thing is, they never really realize that its not really the cloths that they wanted.

All they wanted was just happiness.

You know what, true happiness never comes from all the shopping.

It only comes from God.

2009-04-25T03:43:00.002+08:00

Life has been so awesome(:

Running at rocket speed! But still loving life!

In fact, much more!

I am staying over in church tonight to do my school project!

haha! But right now, I am editing my sermon for Cg later in the day!

Can't wait for Cg! Woooooohooooooooo!

Its gonna be great!

So here are some photos of what has been up in my life lately!

I am sorry if some of you are not in here because I didn't get the photos!

But I still love you all(:

Its a season for BUILDING.

Let's Build to Last this race(:

SPIRITUALITY.

That's all we need(:

2009-04-04T01:05:00.005+08:00

life has been great!!:)

& I really love hanging out and fellowship-ing with you guys!

it has been really awesome seeing each one of you grow

man, I love you all:)

o yes... Let me show you a photo which was taken years back!

so funny hor?

we both look so different already...

anyway, I got this really cool photo of the zone

and I just have to post it!

It is really a season for all of us to progress

let's all grow together, hop on now and join this race:)

there is still lots of space

new level, new devils.

2009-03-28T02:14:00.003+08:00

My Classmate CHERYL CHAN and I!! HAHA

THE GIGGY LOOK!!

haha... think we are cool=)

Anyway here is another photo that I really like..

But when I look at it, I truly feel like I am growing older..

Anyway, love you all=)

2009-03-26T02:15:00.007+08:00

what do I love doing best?

That's loving you=)

What do I love seeing the most?

That priceless smile on all of your faces=)

Don't you just love life?

because I do=)

It isin't all perfect,

but life is just great!

Anyway here is a little video for all of you to see!

Here is Mel and Eunice Tay on the piano!

Its a little funny because they were just having fun and didn't prac before that.

But trust me they are both really good in piano=)

so anyway, enjoy=)

2009-03-23T01:30:00.003+08:00

So much to say, but yet sometimes its hard to put it into words.

Its really a season to grow..

Lets just Grow and Build people!

In Spirituality and Character.

Lets pass on the Heart and Culture.

It doesn't stop here...

It has just Begin =)

Anyway, I think that Dom is really cool! haha

Do you know that Dom is actually doing the 2 most important followup lessons for ALL the guys who has yet to finish followup in D Zone?

I think my zone leader is cool=) =)

2009-03-04T14:05:00.002+08:00

Let me show all of you the photo!

we are cool huh?=)

anyway just came back from morning jog with Garret, Jamie and Colin!

had a great lunch after that i am so full that I feel like sleeping right now...

today is gonna be great!

we are gonna get the OPS AMT Graduation invitation cards printed later!=)

ok, really sleepy and i am gonna go off first so see you all...

2009-03-04T03:40:00.003+08:00

haha... I just realize that I haven't blogged for a year!

But anyway now Dodds has a really cool thing- Our very own BLOG!!!

If you haven't seen it, you definitely got to go right now!!

so here is the link:

http://dodds-hogc.blogspot.com

be sure to visit yea.. and all credit goes to Joanna!

She inspired me to start blogging all over again.. and thats why there is this post today! haha

Anyway, today was so amazing!

Had D Odds meeting and Lynette was there! It has been a Long time since Lynette was there for a meeting like this...

Just love having my leaders around=)

Anyway, It was really a great time of dwelling in the presence of God as well as getting to fellowship with the zone..

O YEA, a few of the d ones went a little nuts..

We decided to be like cheerleaders and lifted Yolanda up and let her fall backwards onto the d one-ners arms!

little hard to explain... but I think there are some photos of it taken!

If you ever do see it one day, dont get too shock! haha!

o yea and we tried really hard to do a pyramid but failed and ended up falling on each other!

It was hilarious!!! HAHAHA!!

anyway just a random something...

I havent gone on facebook so long that i forgot how to use it!! Can you believe it??

One thing I must say...

I love my life=)

Life's great!!

2008-11-25T12:55:00.003+08:00

Time check: 12:56pm

Mood check: Sleepy

Yeah hi it's melissa here! Felicia spent the night in my house and it was quite funny. Everything we did had to be done discretely or my parents would chop me. But thank God we wrote them a note and they didn't even bother about us. Slept for like 3hrs plus before we woke up, and started meddling with her new phone. Sang karaokeparty, haha i won her okie now she owes me koi cafe!

Waiting for her to bathe then we're leaving for idk where. Anyw it's really cool having her around yup. Oh yeah i must blog about yst afternoon. Felicia, eunice, howteng and myself went to huimin's house and we started praying tght. The presence of God just fell so strongly and we're just going to a whole new level spiritually. God will move in no time, amen!

I see a near revival, stirring as we pray and seek

We're on our knees, we're on our knees... :)

Hahahah okay gtg manxzc she's out already.

LOVE YOU FELICIA KKTHXBAI :D

2008-06-07T03:06:00.002+08:00

wahs!! i have to say that i totally forgot about blogging till i was looking through blogs while waiting for my video to load.

what can i say?
its 3.30am now! haha! and i got class in the morn.
and i have decided that i shall not sleep to finish up my videos and my school work
the worst thing is that i am really HUNGRY
and the funny thing is that i just came back from super without eating.
*stomach growls

anyway, today is really an exciting day
it started out with a powerful qt and some descipleship from God
but all the more, i know he loves me=)
went on to meet huimin and the kcp girls.
went around j8 before rushing down to cathay to watch a movie
(side track: you guys gotta watch narnia. its really worth watching)
funny thing was that it was suppose to be a 3 people (vik+leslie+me) movie but ended up with 10!
and than we met Ivan and other Zone F people who were watching the same movie
hahaz!
and after that,
huishan,alan,andy,linus and ben came to meet us
that made us 20?
After the movie, we went to rochor tao hui and there,
we met Jamie and bryan! hahaz!
its so funny because wherever we walked it seemed hard to not notice us because we were so BIG!
anyway, we also went to the arcade at ps-really fun man!
just that i cant play the basket ball game.=/
haha!really bad at it.
than in the night, vik and me went down to hougang to find brandon but the house didnt really existed to we ended up meeting lun,andrew and james for supper.
James was so funny man! half the time we couldnt stop laughing because he kept makng funny faces. lol!

anyways! yup!
thats my really long day.
tomorrow s going to be even more exciting

btw, i am going to start gaming!
i have decided to play maple and cs and i am going to be a pro in no time
LOL
at least i think so
ok, time to do things.
see you!

2008-05-06T12:45:00.005+08:00

life is awesome! (Bestie is awesome-est!!! :X )

I am right now with mel at bishan macs and she is suppose to study, but ended up repairing my chat box. lol!

here's a photo of her setting up my chatboxx!

and since she refuse to take a photo with me i took snap shots of her!

and she thought i wouldnt know how to send it over from her phone!!

lol!

look mel!!

its on my blogggg! wuahaz!

so here it is! such a nice smile=D

here is something mel had to say!

here goes...

MEL: hihi hehe huhu haha? huh ? okay, inside joke :)

anw you see, my bestie treat me so bad. go and post my unglam photos. tsk tsk ://

feel like going to the toilettt. rahhh. so random. yay we're going to town later. to get presents for our mamma on mamma's day! hurhur :)) off to the toilettt!!!!! cyaxzc .

lurbe lurbe w0rhxzc ^.^ :] *acts cute* :))

btw Bestie, your battery's gonna die anytime soon. hmmm.

Yes mel, i know!!

thus to finish up....

I FINALLY manage to get a nice photo with her!

wuahz! feel acomplished!

just to end of,

i am so proud of her for being unable to be emo!

think she tried being emo but she just ended up happy!

she changed so much from the once-always emo mel to the- forever happy mel!

smile on!

love you girllll!

for now,

lets go to the ladies!

tata!

love!=))))

2008-05-01T00:11:00.004+08:00

wuahahas.
what can i say?
i love my life!

life has been awesome
just doing things that i do makes me happy
just love loving people
just love seeing people grow, change and become happy

something i gotta share:
was really so impacted by what jamie shared during cg!
having insights to your life!
fact#1 having insights to your life determines your capacity in God
this blew me away!
somehow we always have it in our mind that we need to have insights of our lives but we never really thought why.
the reason is because when u do not have insights, u do not know what is troubling you and therefore, u cant give your problems to God, which leads to a small capacity because you got no space to think or do anything else EXCEPT focus on your PROBLEMS.

Philippians 4:6-7
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God: and the peace of God which surpasses all understanding, will gaurd your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

as we read this verse over and over again, the presence of God started to fill the entire room and as this words are imprinted onto our hearts and when we start to abide in this words. Something moved in the spirit.

life has really been like a rollercoaster ride. however with God, everything seems to be different. For my yolk is easy and my burden is light!
what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger.
Amen!

anyway, pollyna claims that the moon is blue tonight because i am finally blogging. if you still dont understand, she just meant- i blog once in a blue moon

haha! just had to say it because she is my long lost best friend=)
o well.
tatas!

2008-02-28T04:14:00.002+08:00

weehee!
Although i know that nobody comes here anymore, but its ok because i just cannot contain my excitement and i need to write it out!
This is joy man!
Just so happy doing what i am doing
Loving my people
Loving my life
Loving You.
Yes You, God its You=)
wuahaha! if you ever do read this post tell me on msn ok? haha!
but really, i think God has been so amazing to me!
Its like he is constantly surprising me and i am in awe!
btw, i cant wait for bible study this friday and saturday.
its gonna be solid stuff man!
ivan shared a little appetizers when we were in the alfresco months back
Now, its time for the Main course!
Moving on!=D

2007-09-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

and he says 'you are my daughter in whom I am well pleased'

Pastor Joakim preached an awesome message today
like always, he never fails to touch the hearts of many =)

David Livingstone - the man who chose to walk the narrow road. Above fame, glory and all the riches of this earth he chose to live his life in the uncharted areas in the jungles of Africa to preach the gospel of God.
It all started out with a dream as a little boy and today, he is known by many. Your dreams are never too big for God=) Whatever we can ask, God can give and even bigger.
He live for an eternal cause and a purpose and laid up treasures in heaven.
I want to be just like him, to live a life sold out for Jesus Christ
We start small, but we will end Big!=)

took a photo in a rush just before the lift doors opened=)

Hey Howteng, thanks for sending me off! you are awesome! and I want to tell you that i am really so proud of you! seeing you change just makes everything so worthwhile=) keep growing! you are going to be a great woman of God!

Hey maril! miss you so much! love you man! can't wait till my exams are over than i can finally hang out more with you just like how we use to!=)

Hey sister! i miss you so much! do take care of yourself in netherlands!=)
cant wait till you return! Love you!

2007-08-12T01:08:00.000+08:00

Life is getting more exciting with these people around=)
HAHA spend some time on thursday cleaning our new home up just after my grandma's birthday celebration!=)
the new place was simply awesome!=)
you guys got to come see it one day!

Howteng and me!=)

Abi, Mel and me=)
took this today..
and Mel refused to let us take a photo
hahah so this was a real quick one taken in the lift=)
but it's nice eh?

Service was simply a BOOM!
Presence was strong and the annointing of God was powerful!
for those who weren't there, it was really a service not to be missed!

here's something from the service for you guys:
' it cost you nothing to dream, so why not dream Big?!' =)
ain't it amazing!
whatever we can ever dream, God can give!
they are never to Big for our God
and he can even give us exceedingly, abundantly, above all that we can ask or think!
Don't I have a BIG GOD?!
Love God, Love Life, Love people=)
and I simply Love my Pastors and Church!
Pastors also talked about where our church was heading to in the next few years
We are indeed moving and growing
Pastors have great dreams for the future
and i deffinately wanna be part of it yea?

later, we settled for our da bao-ed dinner at the alfrasco area in the church balcony=)
took some really cool photos after that
hahah
dont have them with me now
but its really nice!
Today was simply an unforgetable evening=)
really enjoyed myself!
hope guys did too!=)
Love you all!

2007-07-11T21:15:00.000+08:00

hey guys
just wanna blog and encourage u all that we can conquer our mountains together
amen?
hahah
lets study hard
and conquer the mountains we never had before
i believe that God is going to bring us through it
amen?
lets keep having faith for the CG and things around us!
We are going to breakthrough 35! amen?
you guys rock!

hello mel! you rock my socks!=)

2007-05-20T01:29:00.000+08:00

hello guys!

hahaha! i decided that i should blog before my blog dies off again

so anyway...

here is my exciting life=)

There is abel,kevin,abi,hwee,lester,zhenxiang and myself..

haha... we are indeed full of Love! =P

I love you all!

this was taken on Mel's birthday=D she rock la!

this were notes we pinned on wenjie's board when we went to visit him..

hello wenjie!

we are going to get through the storms amen?

you are not alone=)

hello kha and yo! i love you!

hello kim!=) u finally came back after so so long!

you made my day man!

haha! and it was really great catching up with you..

hello mel!

hope you enjoyed your hello panda!

keep smiling!=)

hello Tess!=)

gotta get well soon yea?

WO MEN AI NI DUO DUO!

hello lester!

just wanna tell you i am so proud of you!

i can really seeing you living your live for others man

despite running such a high fever you were still there for your people=)

you rock laa!

hello Abi!

really see you growing all the time=)

going to be adminstrator soon eh?

i've got full assurance and faith in you man!

you are going to do GREAT!

hello hwee..

u make me speechless all the time

looking at you just makes me smile man=)

its really great to have you running along this race

love you luh!

hello dale!

just wanna tell you that i really miss you!

looking at this photo really reminds us about alot of memories eh?

but i was soooooo happy to see you todae!

yup!

wanna see you soon again!=D

2007-05-06T00:06:00.000+08:00

When you are oh so tired about everything
Do not give up
But press on
Never forget to look towards the Source and seek Him=)
And you would be AMAZED
Because He has been waiting for you with open arms
Waiting for your arrival
Right back under his wings where you find the peace and security
Away from all that is out there in the world
Away from all carnality

God, you are truly my love.
My one and only
My source, My refuge.

Throughout this whole week
I have come to realize that
I can never live without doing the work of God=)
It has become a part of my life
So much so that it all felt so weird that
I haven’t talked to my Cg mates in just a day
And so I started calling people up that evening
And that made me feel like my day was completed
And had not gone to the waste
I love you all!
You guys are the reason
Which makes everything is so worth while=)
But of cause My Creator comes first!
NO ONE can take HIS place in my heart=)

I will move my mountains
I will step over them
Because I’ve got the greatest power of all…
Amen.

Service was definitely great!
Pastor Lia preached about
Our Unseened Eyes=)
If you are wondering what it is,
It is the eyes of your heart!
For out of the abundance of the eyes of your heart the mouth speaks.
Pastor also preached that without a vision, the people perish!
It just brought back to the point of my vision
Where it so vividly burns in my spirit
Which I have chucked at the back of my mind for quite awhile
But seeing the vision once again was AWESOME=)

I love you Lord,
You are my sole provider =)

2007-02-04T01:27:00.000+08:00

HELLLOOO MING HAN!
i miss you!!

hey boy
just wanna tell you that you have been such a great cg mate
though you have transfered over to D4
it just shows that you are needed=)
but o well...
someone like me, misses the presence of you around
you have really been like my brother to me
especially for the past few months.
its going to be weird without you around
and though we felt the unbearable tugs in our heart to let you go
but its where you are needed and where you would grow better!
keep fighting!
i will see you 60 to 70 years down the road=D
WO AI NI!! HEN DUO HEN DUO!!

today my heart tore into a billion pieces
when i saw someone
after he did and said some stuff
it really brought me to tears when i was on the way home
images on how we first met
how he first came
how he changed
how he first shared his testimony
how he acted when i saw him the other time
how he acted when i saw him there and then
in my heart i started to ask God what has happened to him..
he has lost the fire
and got decieved by the satan.
i love him all the same
and i still want the best for him
but he wouldnt believe in it anymore.
on the way home,
i started to worship God
'i believe in you, i believe your word has set me free, with all that i am, i will live my life for you'
once again
daddy came to piece my heart back into one
and brought love to my heart =D
thank you God! thank you for loving me!=)

service was amazing
and worshipping God was awesome!
seeing how the first Zone F worship team play
brought me to thoughts
on how each life has been transformed
and changed by his love
how i love this testimonies!

your the light of this world
you are the hope of this nation
my God i hear your call
i am reaching out
hear my desperation
my rock my strength my all
i am going break those chains
i am gonna heal the broken hearted
cause i've got faith
i am going to change this world
i am going to move any mountain
cause i've got faith
i believe in miricles cause i believe in you
i believe in miracles the life the way the truth
jesus
i believe in you

my heart cries out for more of you
i love you daddy
take all of me
as i come into your embrace
change me Lord i pray
i dont want to be the same
build me and use me for your kingdom
mould me in any way you want
forgive me Lord for anything that was unholy or against your laws
cleanse me with your blood once again
feel me with your spirit
a double portion Lord i pray
breaking chains.
healing broken hearts.
changing this world.
moving mountains.
i believe. i've got faith. i am desperate for more of you.
hear my cry lord
hear my cry lord i pray.
thank you lord=D

2007-01-31T02:19:00.000+08:00

HELLLLOOOOOOO!!!
i have decided to post somemore photos from my china trip!=D
anywayz this is my full family! its a hard to get a photo like that
it really is.

me,korkor and jiejie=)

me=)

me,daddy,korkor
its like man and woman in black!
haha!! so cool!!!^^

me!=D

me and jiejie!=)

mummy,me and jiejie!!=D

jiejie and me again!! weewooweep!!=P

me! heh!=D

me and mummy!=D

hahaha
this is the end of the photo album
hahaha
happening eh?
anyway school is making me go gaga
so someone please make me go haha
and than my friends will go yaya
and right now, i feel like eating papaya
hahah
ok
i dont wanna eat that
and it isnt meant to be a joke
not funny.
=p
i love you all!!

2007-01-16T01:28:00.000+08:00

***continued***

Casse and me!!=)

as we sing CHARLALALALA!! charlala in the morning...^^

Addison and me!!=P

and here we go crazieee again!=P

and more joins in as he gets tortured!! wuahahahahah!!

and TADA!!!=D
anyway just for everyones information, i cut my dress into a top!!
the one you see in the picture above!!(black with floral prints) ^^
thanks to both JAMIE and ABIGALE!!
WEEEHEEHEE!! good choice to cut! or i would have looked like
a pragnent woman for the whole day!! weehhehehehe!!=P

***************

anywayz, we have recently had a stay over and i gotta say that huimin is really funny and she sleeps in weird positions. hahaha!! but i have deccided to protect my darling and keep the photos safe with me ^^

try asking me for it and maybe, just maybe i might let u have a little peep!=P
but more than anything it was the time we spend together that was most precious
the fun we had, laughter and crazy little things we did,
i will neva forget=)

just a little photo for you to see!!

hahah!! yes!! this is m new specs and i gotta stay outta contact lense for 2 whole weeks!! but its ok!! i am counting down!! just one more week to go!!=D
but o well, can't stay a nerd like this for long =P

***************
Pastor joakim's sermon was deffinately powerful!
Yes! i would stay true to my first love!
Finish the race i have started!
And bring christ to my school!!

As the bell rang, people stood silently and listened.
the sound not only shook our ears but also our hearts.
the sound brought tears to my eyes as i saw in the spirit how this people gave up their life jacket for others.
'i will die better than you'
deffinately i can live my life for OTHERS
The Empress of Ireland.

more of you
less of me

***************

2007-01-16T00:52:00.000+08:00

weee!!
its a loooooonnngggg time since i blog hahah!!
but i believe that pictures speaks more!!
so enjoy it!!=D

i gotta say that the holiday to china was not all that
interesting, but i gotta say that the scenery wasnt
bad at all!!=)

pretty eh? ^^

and of coze!! the best part of it was to catch up with my parents=)
mummy and me!!=D

daddy and me!!=D

***************

have i ever told you how i love my churchies!!=D
hahah... here are some photo =D

a photo of nana and me!!=) haha! we both forgotten this existed!!
Abigale and me!!=D
dont you just love her in her purple hairband?!=P

pearl and me!!=)

Kha and me!!=P
my beloved cg mate ^^

dawn and me!!!=D
yay!!
haha!! to be continued....=P

2006-12-09T00:02:00.000+08:00

as a girl
i have learned that i can never survive without him
as a girl
i have learned that you can take me away from them but my heart willl always be there
as a girl
i have learned that the only thing that is able to excite me from the inside out is to see people sharing their testimonies and to see people saved
as a girl
i have learned to realise how meaningless life is without doing my father's work
as a girl
i have learned to realise how miserable i feel without my churchies around me
as a girl
i have learned to realise how much we should treasure churchies even more because they are always speakingg life and not death
as a girl
i have learned that i am not perfect
but also as a girl
i have learned that my weakness is made perfect in him
as a girl
i have learned how much i hungered for him
as a girl
i have learned that i am young and do not know alot
as a girl
i have learned that he doesnt despise me
as a girl
i have learned that i am loved!
i have learn so so so much
i love you all
and i miss u all
cant wait to get back to singapore
see you all soon!!!
LOVE!!!=D

2006-11-18T02:56:00.000+08:00

and God is indeed faithful
he would deffinately bring in blessings
just as how u have sown into the kingdom of God

i just have to tell all of u dispite some not very nice moments
there are some moments that would be kept in my heart
and they are irreplacable
for 3 consecutive days
i have really been blessed by people around me
=)

WINNIE came up to me on wed just before i left with this huge cookie=)
and it deffinately was God because that was the time where
i had just got scolded from my mum and when my PO was erupting
it was like a warmth feeling of loved that overcome the fear in me=))

yesterday as i was panicking not having a cab by 9.25pm
when i was suppose to be home by 9pm
i called out to VANESSA as i saw her walking from the mrt back to church
when she met me she ask me to go over
and before i knew it,
in my hand was this little card with this 10 dollar bill
indeed it wasnt much but it was a blessing that
was led by the God and the holy spirit=)
it was her heart behind all this which amazes me.
it was the thought of me that God placed in her which AMAZED me even more

just today, i was greeted by a message from JAMIE & KHA
one just sowed faith into my spirit
and the other sowed love in my heart
later today after leaders meeting
MARIL came up to me and said that GOD put a picture of me
while she worshiped God
and asked her to ask if i was alright.
though we didnt finish talking because she had to rush of to do somestuff
but indeed GOD is faithful
and deffinately we would recieve double for our trouble=)

they were people who did acts of love
not for the glory or fame
but because they obeyed the voice of God
and out of their hearts where pure love exist, they gave
CHURCHIES!! YOUR ARE THE BEST BEST BEST!!=D
i lurb you worxx!!!
HAHAHA=P

lastly this is a picture of my little dog who is lying just
beside me as i am typing...
isint he just SOOOOOOOOO UBER CUTE!!!=)

*personal message*
**samantha**hey girl you are deffinately a stamp chop good friend! it was deffinately great to know that she has such a great friend like you and i really do salute u for that! u are great girl! loves!=)
**damien** thanks boy for what you said!! haha!! i shall post it here!!
all night long says:
haha
all night long says:
you know something i admire you for
all night long says:
you have matured thinking
all night long says:
and yupps one special girl
all night long says:
strng and independant
all night long says:
ahah
all night long says:
thats how i feel bout you la
seriously u gave me a shock!=P

i do not deserve what you are doing for me right now
i thank you father
for leading my through.
my deepest of thanks giving
i offer to you
everyday of my life i live for you
thank you once again
for paying for all my sins
on that cross
which u were forsaken
i will fight on
even if it cost me
just like wat Esther said
so be it =)

2006-11-15T00:45:00.000+08:00

today there was zone meeting
and it was indeed POWERFUL
lynette prayed for me
and WOW!
indeed MY GOD is a BIG GOD!
right now i have a choice
to be swallowed up in all my problems
or live my life towards what God has plan for me!
WOW!
A Woman Of Character!
A Woman Of Wisdom!
i have chosen to live on with life
despite everything else.
what would you choose?

hey tess! remember this photo?!=)

just wanted to tell you that
just like how he believes in you
i believe in you too!
and u will grow like neva before
but of coze u have to go to him daily
to draw strength from him like never before!
=)
just like what is on your blog
A friend is a person to laugh and cry with
Someone who lends a helping hand,
though friends may not be forever,
And they may not end up together,
the memories of a true friendship willlast forever.
A friend is not a shadow nor a servant
But someone who holds a piece of a person in her heart.
Someone who shares a smile,
Someone who brightens up your day
Is what makes a person a friend

just to let you know that there are many pieces of you in my heart
and that u will always mean so so much to me
i may not be the best or anything
but u can be secured at heart
that if there would be anyone there to hurt u
and if somehow i know about it
i would always to stand up for you
love you girl!=)

today is mummy's birthday!

HAHA! my mum was really shocked to recieve the present!=D

and here it is DAA DANG!!!=D

hahah!! yes here are photos taken on sunday while doing hospi!
GUESS WHO?? HAHA

and its us!! =P

lovey dovey!=)

2006-11-11T22:24:00.000+08:00

wow! service today was simply AMAZING!!
Pastor preached about The Incredible Hulk.
on how we loose control at times emotionally
which causes us to loose control on the outside!
its amazing to see how everything is linked.

besides that, Ming han and brendon shared their testimony
during youth service today
and wow! how their lives has changed.
it must have been God at work.

The happiest thing that happened to me
was that there was another salvation today!
AMEN!!
Samuel, YOU made my day!!=D

this is what i am living for
the fruits of labour
is simply awesome
seeing people sharing their testimonies
leading another soul to God
it just makes all my problems seem so small
it just makes the fight all worth it

another smile u see on my face and thats because of YOU!
Jamie
yo
polly
kha
huimin
pearl
tess
christina
lionel
lester
samuel
ming han
brendon
and so many many more of YOU, CHURCHIES!!

i am dreading so much to even think that i have to go overseas
because i am going to miss VBS!!
i wish so much that there is a way
just one way that i can talk them out of it
VBS is really really a do not miss guys
please really do sign up and go for it
everyone would just step to another level spiritually
and its a time where u guys really bond too
really really just like a family

I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
muacks!!=P

my heart cries out for more of you
it whispers through the bristle of the wind
you answer my call
fill my heart with love
thank you for all that you have done

you were there when i needed you most
you filled my heart with love
you had a choice
but yet you chose to die for me
on that cross
having nails through that hands that healed
you wore a crown of thorns
on that head filled with wisdom
on that cross
i was on your mind
thank you my father
for that unconditional love of yours
you are my everything
my everything that i live for
thank you my father for that
unconditional love of yours

2006-11-07T01:03:00.000+08:00

today i went to vivo city and met pearl!=D

haha! yes pardon me for looking so scary and no that is not my hand! it is Margee hand!!

yes back to the point
you rock girl! =)
though it was a really short time
but it was good catching up with you!
and really getting to know what is up in your life
and wat happen before.=)
i am sure there has gotta be more in your life
but i just wanna tell u that
dont worry i would always stand up for you!
btw thanks for the choc!=)
you made my day!
btw we really should go out again soon!
haha! but this time, longer. =D

i think the photo is taken a LITTLE weirdly...

here are some photo's taken at vivo and if you were there,
you would have seen this girl taking photos sneakily trying
hard not to look like a tourist. HAWHAW!=D

can u see sentosa?!

this thing is really nice=) the water flows down the seashells into the whole.

can u see how long vivo is?! but nothing spectacular though.

there was this shoe thing there ahah! the shoes were really pretty =)

after that i met polly went to eat and headed to church=)
later i met my sister and juju to travel to chomp chomp
to meet my mum and brother for dinner
saw Jie Ru and jackson at the mrt
how that brought a smile to my face.

right now both my head and my heart is hurting
there are like a thousand million and one thoughts
going through my head right now.
somehow i wished that somethings did not happen
but still because of you daddy
i pick myself once more
to fight fight fight and fight against anything that
attempts to bring me down

you hear me crying out to you
you never fail to wipe away my tears
thank you daddy
you never fail to be there for me when i needed you most
even as i cross the road trying hard to control my tearducts
i felt your love surround me
thank you
I LOVE YOU =)

2006-11-06T03:56:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I would like to applaud myself for being able to make my lappy blue tooth work once again. Weeeness!! Now I can blue tooth all my pics over no thanks to my lousy phone and spoilt cable…=l

Parachute band on Friday was simply amazing as the people cried out and hungered for God and his presence. It was like POW WOW! Thank God I didn’t miss it. It was so powerful that I bought the cd.=)

my pretty preety CDs =D

Anyway, today has been an amazing day. Ming Han and Brendon shared their testimony in adult service. Today, I have experience the true happiness of witnessing a life changing for the better and especially the whole feeling of having a little part of it. In my heart I knew and I knew that I would want to fight on and change lives of others just like how your lives got changed. Your testimonies really put so much in me. Love.Hope.Faith. Now I can carry on and on and on.=) I thank God for helping me make the choice I made than. It was painful but it was all worth it. It was never a coincidence but it was a plan by God because he first loved you.You know as you guys shared I couldn’t control my tear ducts as they release what they were created for – Tears.
These were tears of true love, happiness and joy. Lastly, I am real proud of you Brendon. Fight the good fight and win the race. You will always have me supporting and standing up for you till the end of times. =)

haha... yes and this is a photo of us =D

Tonight, we had a conference and after we put down the phone, I could choose what I wanted to do, and something in me just hungered once more for the presence and touch of God so strongly and there and than, my lappy was playing the parachute band CD and it came to this song, Jesus, by parachute band, I have never heard of this song before and I was conidering if I should check out the rest of the songs first just like how I would always do but somehow this time without much hesitant I just felt led by the holy spirit to sing this new song. So, I took all the other songs out of the playlist and I started to worship him.I really love the lyrics. As the song played, the presence of God flooded my heart, my room. Here are the lyrics….
So near to me
I can feel your touch
So close by me
A whisper is enough
Love and kindness
Overflow my soul
New songs Expressing
Your love amazing love

You're the air that I breathe
You're the reason I sing
My Jesus Jesus

You’re the one I adore
O my spirit it soars
My Jesus Jesus

You guys should really really go listen to this song.
The whole entire song is like sia lah! GOOD! =)

Hey Peirong. You have no idea how much I miss you. Well here are some photos we took together last time. I will wait for your return. Love you dear girl.

Happy happy memories.....=)

And now, for a little peek into my little bubble world….

this photos are old. but the memories still lives in us =)

How I love them.. HAWHAW!!

You hear the whispers of my heart
The truest of worship I give to you
Simply because I love you
And this Is the cause I am living for
To see lives change
And to hear the testimonies of your works
Once again I am giving up my all
For all of you
I love you
More than ever

2006-10-26T00:34:00.000+08:00

just as i thought the day could no longer get any worse,
it did.
well, but its ok,
through all this
was exercising of bold faith
i have to do something. i will.
simply because i make things happen.
holding back the tears was hard
but i managed it.
the first place where i break down
has to be in front of my daddy up there and no where else.
in front of no one else.
but well, daddy did cheer my day up a little.
just as i was on the way home emotionally unstable under the rain,
just at the traffic light
a lady shared her umbrella with me
and sent me to the mrt
sheltering me all the way.
i am sure all that happen
simply because my daddy loves me
and couldnt bare for me to get drench in that weather.
but getting drench wouldnt be a bad idea eh?!
at least my tears wouldnt be noticed.
but well
thank you daddy.
next time it would be tears of joy.=D
because i know u love me=)

every tear i cry
is precious in his eyes

another thing that just wiped a smile on my face
was seeing lives change
and yes! i am so proud of you.
the only thing that would give me strength to carry on
would be to see people like you
whom's life is transform.
wow
amazing!
I LOVE YOU!=)

2006-10-06T12:49:00.000+08:00

phew....
i feel like a bird trapped in a cage
i really need to fly
and i cant wait till exams are over
when i finally recieve the key
to unlock this lock on the cage.

studying is really draining
it drains all my energy
mood
and strength
but the best thing is that
we are able to draw strength from HIM

so yes i got STRENGTH
or rather HIS STRENGTH
so i can do ALL THINGS
now i feel powerful!!
LETS CONQUER OUR EXAMS!!=D

find me at the cross
down on my knees
i thank you Lord
for saving me...

2006-10-01T20:34:00.000+08:00

Hey guys i was so happy to find the song why by Nichole Nordeman
i thought i have lost it but i found it a few days ago while studying=)
anyways this songs lyrics really really touched me to the bottom of heart.
here it is.... just to share with the people i love...
*******
we rode into town the other day
just me and my daddy
he said i finally reach that age
and i could ride next to him on the horse
that of coze was not quite as wide
we heard a crowd of people shouting
and so we stop to find out why
there was that man that my dad said he loved
but today there was fear in his eyes
so i said daddy why are they screaming
why are the faces of some of them beaming
why is he dressed in that bright purple rope
i bet that crown hurts him more than it shows
daddy please can you do something
he looks as though he's gonna cry
you said he was stronger than all of this guys
daddy please tell me why
why does everyone want him to die

later that day the sky grew cloudy
and daddy said i should go inside
somehow he knew things would get stormy
boy was he right
but i could not keep from wondering
if there was something he had to hide
so after he left i head to find out
i was not afraid of getting lost
so i followed the crowds
to a hill where i know man have been killed
and i heard a voice come from the croud
and it said father why are they screaming
why are the faces of some of them beaming
why are they casting their lot for my cloth
this crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows
father please can't u do something
i know that u must hear my cry
i thought i could handle a cross of this size
father remind me why
why does everyone want me to die
ooo when will i understand why
my precious son i hear than screaming
i'm watching the faces of the enemy beaming
but soon i will cloth u in ropes of my own
Jesus this hurts me much more than u noe
but this dark hour i must do nothing
though i've heard your unbearable cry
the power of your blood destroys all of the lies
soon you see pass the unmerciful eyes
look there below see the child
trembling by her fathers side
now i can tell u why
she is why u must die
*******
WOW!! isint it amazing?!
which other king would die for us!
someone so highly up there could have chosen not to do it
but yet he chose to go through all that suffering
and thats how much he loves us.
so i urge all of u
to fight your own battle of faith
no matter how tired u are
dont give up
because look beside you
we are fighting the same fight each and every day
together with you.
look to the source
and continuesly draw strength from him
FOR GOD, HAVE A HEART OF FIRE
FOR OTHERS, HAVE A HEART OF LOVE
FOR SELF,HAVE A HEART OF STEEL
lastly, i have a short clip
as i saw it
tears started to flow
how sweet=)
how lovely=)
http://www.donghaeng.net/english/main.htm
*click on FLASH followed by HOPE
its a MUST see!!=)

2006-09-29T03:22:00.001+08:00

its right now 3.40am in the morning
and i am going to faint and die soon.
today, or rather yesterday, i had my English exams
and in 3 hours time i am going to have my Chinese exams.
besides studying, praying and hoping for the best
there is nothing else i can do.
i am racing against time.
there isint enough time for me to study enough to do well
and so there goes my sleep
and welcome to my big, black panda eyes... =(
*******
so well, anywayz today i recieved two big bars of chocolate
(wanted to put pic but bluetooth not working)
from Ying Zheng,Cheryl,Rosi,Ming Xia and Casse.
its part of my birthdae present =)
HAHA!! and the best thing is it really taste delicious
and they are in my favourite flavours
its like a treat to help me get on with my revision
when i dont wanna study anymore!!
but ok yes we cant eat too much of it
and we all noe why... yes yes..
*******
find me at the cross
down on my knees
Jesus i surrender ALL
*******

2006-09-27T17:42:00.000+08:00

JAMIE BOUGHT THIS FOR ME!!=D

this is my birthdae present!!yay!! HAHA=P

tick tock the clock strucked 12 midnight

25th September 2006 was here!!

and tick tock soon it was gone...

within this 24 hours i have enjoyed myself tremendously!

simply because it was my birthday and i was totally

THE HAPPIEST GIRL ON PLANET EARTH!

i felt totally loved and people whom i never expect would remember

wished me a happy birthday!!

and so look at all this photos....

this was taken on saturday 23/9 before

i went for my birthday dinner with my family

the next day on the 24/9, my CG celebrated

my birthdae for me!!They gave me a Cake,

Card and this sunflower! it was super

embarrasing because almost the whole Zone

sang me a birthdae song!!HAHA=D

early in the morning, Jean surprised me with

this earring and Pocky! so cute!! haha!!=P

This is from Ying zheng,Cheryl,Rosalin,

Ming Xia and Cassandra!!

The Cross is super nice right?! =D

i super duper love it!! and it is in PINK!

me and ying zheng in our physics class!

From Seah Hui and Ferdi =)

it smells super good!! like rose syrup!!

Serhan gave this to me!

in this weird box... and told me it was a bomb..
HAHA!! but it made me really happy!

*****

HAHA!! yes!! so, i was super happy

as my phone kept ringing all day long,

flooded with happy birthdae smses!!

anywayz tomorrow is my english exam

and i am really going to faint and die soon!

but well...EVERYTHING is going to be ALRIGHT!!

i've got JESUS IN ME!!=)

thats all for now peeps!!

take care!!=D

2006-09-22T03:08:00.000+08:00

Hey guys

sorry for my super ultra outdated post!

so here is my update!

i am currently studying and studying and studying!

and i am so going to do well

and i have faith.

HARDWORK + FAITH + GOD'S STRENGTH, POWER & TOUCH=RESULTS OF MIRACLES

actually truthfully i do not think i can do well.

it is not humanly possibly

but with God nothing is impossible so well,

i CAN do it! with HIS STRENGTH!

yeah?! =)

*****

And here are my many thanks!

Jamie thanks for the nice little chat we have on the phone and the msn conversation though it is like 2am in the morning. HAHA!!=)i love it!!

Hey Jean, nice time catching up with u through our injection and though the phone calls. thankyou for all you have done for me. u matter to me.=)

Kailin! thanks for using your recess time to help me with my standing board jump. and also to ALL of you who want to run with me after exams and during the holidae!!! thank you so much!!=)

Hey Cheryl! thanks for going to the toilet breaks with me during our super boring and unproductive periods! haha!!

Hey Ming Xia and Ying Zheng thanks for pulling me along for the 2.4run. i couldnt have done it without the BOTH of you!

and to the rest of the 3e3 girls, thankyou for supporting me and cheering me on for my 2.4!

*****

and well... my whole body is aching like mad ever since tuesdae 2.4 and it doesnt seem to get any better.. so well... anyways i will be chionging my studies till 6am and report to school for my IT Media duty, for cca make up session

*****

also, this is specially to tell YOU that it was nice knowing you, MING HAO while doing our cca makeup... it was sure happy memories!=)

*****

lastly, lets do this together D1!! we shall all study hard and do our exams to the best of our abilities!! i LOVE all of you!! and together, we shall say 'IT IS FINISHED!!' =)

2006-08-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

people leave and people go.

they move on with their lives so do we.
but i really do miss them...

this post is specially for you.
do take care of yourself in canada
leave me emails too
send me photos and letters if you wish
all of us miss u alot
its so hard for me to get over it
especially that i havent been able to meet up with you before you went.
thank you for the friendship.
thank you for the time within this 5 years of friendship
i thank you for all that u have done for me=)
i will miss you
and i give you my promise to go out with u when u are back
thank you
love
take care

2006-08-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

i really wanted to put more photos!!
but i cant so yup!! here are the only 5 i can put!!

haha!! you all can see!!it was really so much fun!!

last night jamie came over to stay!!
and i really loved it
it has been a long time since i spend so much time with jamie and like what jamie said, this is what time and money could not buy. i knew this would be the very few times
or maybe even the only time
but this memories are created and kept forever
the violent laughter
runs through our hearts and minds
what is taught
will be practiced
and passed on
I LOVE YOU=)

i have to admit i am rather rundown physically
i am really tired of the complains i hear all the time
and the hurting words which comes soon after
but it is all ok
because my treasure and reward is in heaven
and he loves me=)
thats all i need
and ever need to know
dont worry this race will finish in its most beautiful way.

i am so ubber proud of my cafe team
seeing u guys change just tells me
it is all worth it!!
i LOVE you guys!!
keep it up!!

i have realised how much some people plays a part of me
and how much i actually love you all
i got to say i am a happy girl because of you guys
more than a friend
a family
I LOVE YOU
jamie.polly.yo

2006-07-12T18:01:00.000+08:00

you broke my heart.

you broke my heart so badly that i can hardly think of anything else

it was not only my heart that was broken

it was not only the many who really cared for you

whose heart was broken

but also,

daddy's heart was broken.

*****

while u enjoy it,

behind it were tears shed for you

behind it were people who worried for you

behind it were people who cared for you

behind it were people who truely love you

a destiny at risk

a life at risk

a sister at risk

a friend at risk

a loved one at risk.

*****

you really have no idea how much i love you

and how much u matter to me

every thought of you

takes an effort,

a struggle

to hold back my tears

love is not just a simple'i love you' spoken by lips

love is sacred

love is unconditional

love is everlasting

love is shown by small and simple actions

which you have failed to seen

yet you would go for 'i love you' spoken by lips

in which you would regret in weeks, months and years to come

*****

it was not only a stab in my heart

it was not only a stab in my back

it was not only the stabs u all gave all around me

just to cover up for everything

in fact i knew it long ago

it was the stab you gave your own father after telling him u love him...

dont take him for granted

he is not a spare tyre

use me if you want

not my daddy

*****

hearing the song 'a heart after you'

as i type this

just started to piece my heart back together

u have just shown me how important he is to me

u have just shown me how much i love him

u have just shown me how much i need him

u have just shown me how imporatant this race is

*****

she is right.

everything will work out fine.

through this

u will see.

u will see who are your true friends

you will see who really loves you

and you will see that your one and only daddy still loves you

because his love is unconditional...

and i still love you...

i love you..

2006-07-10T16:33:00.000+08:00

life has been like a chionging train
it couldnt go slower
but yet started accelerating at a even faster pace
just recently i have caught onto the church buzz
it is tiring at the end of the day,
but there is a form of satisfaction each day
and hapiness beyond explanation rising up till it cannot be contained.
i could neva have done this on my own
i do not have that ability nor strength
only because of him i can do it.=)

once again i love you daddy, and this are form of actions to show my love.=)

being in guestroom allows me to really get close to pastors and leaders
and i am real forturnate
these people are just amazing people
i feel much love =)

being in cafe also allowed me to learn how to make decisions
i have always lived around peoples decisions.
but now i have learned

though i am getting descipled so much recently,
it really builds me up,
teaching me how to face situations that i have never encoutered before.
it does affect me someway or another
but well i gotta learn from it yeah?!=)

just todae my teacher saw me and she said i look like a panda
well... its ok...
coze it is all worthwhile.

heaven and hell. lives changes. i will do it. i will see it come to past. because i love you. because i love them.

2006-07-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

heyo!!
hahah!! i am back!!
lalalal!!!
i have been so busy recently
school has been like a speeding train
speeding real quickly...
rushing datelines for movie reviews projects and all...
though they are not those big projects like those in poly,
but ya!!
so many already!!! and so many more!!
lalala!!! anywayz... todae i overslept AGAIN!!
i cant stand it!!
i got to kick of this habit...
hmm... but today is a good day!!
i was late for a reason yeh??
as i was flagging for a cab,
there were empty caps which just pass by me and didnt want to pick me up
i really cant stand those taxi drivers
but anyway... i am secretly thanking them now,
as i was praying for a cab,
this caab finally came and
i met this taxi driver...
ever since i read jamie's blog on the cabby uncle,
i decided to make something out of my taxi trips when i am not caught up with something=)
so well... i started talking to the uncle and we slowly moved to the topic of christianity and church....
he wasnt much of a on-going christian but goes to church once in the while with his friends
he has two children one 3 and the other 5
he says that his wife wants to go to church but they all cant go because he had to work everyday and could not spare just a little bit of time just to come to church. well it twitches my heart to hear all this but wat is best is that i know i have added more water, sunlight and nutrients to the seedling that was planted.
besides that at the conference,
when the pastor was praying,
tears just started rolling down my cheeks
seeing everyone walk down two by two
i just felt two by two their destinies unveal...
thousands of them touched God their daddy!! yup
after that we proceeded to church for service...
i was really really tired before tat
but somehow i just had so much energy welling up!!
i am a happy girl
in my daddy's house....
i might not be able to put this memories into words
but this are ignited moments i will remember
FOR LIFE=)
use your heart and you will be able to feel and flow with it
LOVE YOU ALL!!=)

2006-06-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

=)
yesterdae was an accomplished day!!
its the first time of the whole entire holiday i feel that i did not waste any minute of my day=)
i am real happy
i had a GREAT talk with Pastors too!!=)
really learn alot from pastors.
and u really can see pastors heart for people.
on how much they love each one of us!!

i love my pastors!!

last night we all stayed over in church
i have been hitting my ceiling where i just want more of God but somehow it doesnt happen
as we stayed over and began to worship him out of desperacity
he began to come.
before we ended worship,
i decided to just talk God.
and it was really amazing.
"i am desperate for you Lord"
"Daddy why are you not speaking to me for so long? why am i stuck here?help me. i dont want to be stuck here. i want more of you and i need more of you."
and he replied me and said
"remember those days where you would come to me over the smallest matter like a little child saying 'Daddy, i.......' and how i would reply you?"
"that is what is missing in our relationship now"
"those times where your would sing me praises all the time"
"those days where you would come to me over the smallest issue of your life or even a decision to make"
"come back my daughter."

yup so this is my conversation with God which is so absolutely SWEET=)

today i had i meeting.
a new journey is going to start.
i am a fortunate girl.
but at the same time i am afraid too.
but i will keep praying.

after leaving the soccer challange i went to watch a movie with my primary school friend
and i got to admit
i did not que up for the tickets
lucio got it for me!!
thank you soooooo much!!
i enjoyed the time spend with sheryl...
by next year she will be my fist and only 10-year friend!!
yay!!=)
and i met justina and priska too!!
had Ben and Jerry's ice cream!!
went out for dinner with my dad after tat
i am a happy girl!!=)

i love you daddy up there!!=)

2006-06-21T14:18:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was such a fun day
haha..although my group was one of the last two groups
and we had to eat that 3 loaves of bread
it was still an amazing time together=)
it just made me realise how much i love each one of them
and how thankful i am for each one of them.
by the way,
let me tell u a secret...
i got phobia of plain breads since young..
so please dont make the forfiet eating bread again...=)

my little family is where we do crazy little things together, cry together, laugh together and many others=)dont u just love it coze i am enjoying every second of it=)

i was just going through all the letters i use to recieve and write
and i realise i was engaged in really small talks
but reading it through brings back a flood of memories to me
some brought smiles,
some brought tears,
and some brought stab in my heart and back
neva did i know that my somewhat best friend was just talking big when nothing was actually going on
fooling me, fooling herself...
i would neva have realise if i neva read them again
i was so naive then to realise anything
but it really pains my heart
but it just makes me realise how blessed i am now
to have my daddy's unconditional love
as well as pastors,leaders and churchies love.=)

daddy i love you=)you are always there for me when i need u most.through tears and joy i'll trust in you=)

i was also reading a card from my cousin and it said:
"a journey starts with a single step. each day is a gift... so full of oppotunities..live each day to the fullest,make it the best days of your life.turn your vision and dreams into action and do not forget to enjoy the journey."

yup!! i think it speaks alot. and thats it for now=)

2006-06-19T01:46:00.001+08:00

I don't need anything else but you. Now i have much to live for,die for and to give my very all.=)

hey all...
i was just reading my bible when i took out my old notebook to check some stuff...
as i flipped through each page reading them,
a few topics caught my attention.
once in a bible study by Pastor How,
he preached about The Heart Of Leader
and one part of it has this question:
"Do you care enough to mourn if your friends backslide?"
it just makes me really wonder what are some people thinking about
because sometimes they really dont care.
having one person leave doesnt mean only loosing a soul and a destiny but many!!
friends around who could have been save!!
even if it was just A Soul and A Destiny it still matters!! in fact, ALOT!!
and continueing to that it says:
"what makes you cry and laugh indicates a reflection of your value system and character!!"
so ya... tats it...
as i continue to turned to the back, i read on spiritual attack
the last point was:
"Betrayal-one who builts the walls with you, who fought the war with you and was close to you and later betrays you.The most potent attack which hurts most."
when i read this i felt so much and i really really dont want to see it happening... it hurts my heart so much. especially sometimes some reasons aren't even reasons but lies and excuses.

iloveyou.iloveyou.iloveyou.iloveyousomuch.iloveyou.iloveyou.iloveyou.

2006-06-16T21:48:00.000+08:00

ok...

i am the sadest girl for the moment...

my phone is spoiled.

i change to dale phone.

saved all the contacts into sim card

but too many contacts.

sim card cannot contain everything

auto deleted.

i lost ALOT of contacts and some contacts cannot get back anymore='(

sigh... ok...

yo says i have to be BIG

but i cant get over it!!

aiya but besides that

today is quite a smooth dae=)

the hands of God was on todae

things went smoothly and the way we wanted it to

and i met a new friend=)

not bad eh..

muahahaha...

continueing from the post...

i had so much fun with my brother todae

i am my brothers teacher!!

haha!!tats coze i read his text book from him..

he is trying to like answer with sarcastic understanding

but ya... hahaha!!

i am currently eating nugguts from macs

haha... my brother bought 20pcs nugget for us to share!!=)

i am not that sad after all!!

2006-06-15T14:59:00.000+08:00

hey all!!

i am now at POLLYNA LAI's house!!

hahah!!!

we went to ngee ann this morning

had a really good time with jamie!!

yup!!

i am a real happy girl!!=)

but i am still grounded...

lalala

thats all for now!!

see ya!!=)

Fel loves you*=)

2006-06-14T17:09:00.000+08:00

THIS ARE MEMORIES THAT WILL NEVER BE LOST=) LOVE YOU!!

huggies to my brother!!=)

u are the BEST!!
though i am grounded,
my mum allows me to bring my brother for a haircut
so yup!! i went with him todae
and i had such a great time catching up with him=)
we chatted about so many things
from hair,eye bags,loosing weight to studies,future occupation and the girl he would like
though my brother always tells me how much he dont love me,
but i can tell he does.
just by small little actions.
he was telling me on how i really should start studying
and said although he doesnt listen in class in the end he studies ultra hard to make up for it
and he tells me not to do it though..coze its not good and not right...haha!!
but ya... it just shows that he cared...
and guess wat
on the way home my slippers broke (my dumb moo moo slippers!!but it is half repaired now)
and my brother gave me his slippers
and he ended up walking with one foot on the rocky road
it just touched me alot
because he has neva done anything like this before for me
and use to always envy people with those nice, loving, gentlemently brothers
but who knows!!
i have 1 right beside me
and its enough for me.
so yes!! this entry is dedicated to my brother!!=)
thank you!! i LOVE YOU!! =)

muackz~*

2006-06-13T17:27:00.000+08:00

its time for some changes...

i guess there is no point typing it out here..

but to really do it instead..

there is so much inside me now..

but i guess i have to work it out somehow..

its ok because i got God.

i have just been looking back and seeing so many flaws..

they were covered behind all the fun..

but right now its staring right at my face..

change is a decision not a process..

no longer a chameleon

but someone working for great,strong and Godly character

no longer blend into any environment around

but be the light of the world, pass it around and influence people

no longer push the blame

but do the work

thank you jamie=)

2006-06-07T10:29:00.000+08:00

wa.. its a long time since i blogged..well recently things arent going that smoothly... my results are in a total mess and i got myself grounded.. worst thing is that i miss the emerge conference session 2 where my PASTORS shared their testimony... now i have to STUDY and get VERY GOOD RESULTS for acedemic excellence anyway i should really train my mind eh...

i went away on a malacca trip and when i got home my dearies called me... those familiar voices just gave me such a warmth in my heart... its so good to be home!! i just felt like those people were people who really cared and love me=) my life long partners...

and to all, i am making this annoncement of having a new god bro named KEITH YEO.. haha... we met outside the sc room before those boring meetings that i really hate. but well its worth it to get myself such a good brother and to know another two guys too!! they really are like little brothers=)

i have just been thinking alot about cafe where it is really a training ground to really be servant hearted...u really cannot fake it because every small single little detial matters..Cafe teachers you to be:
1) faithful to the small things
2)put your heart into wat you do and doing it to the best of your abilities
3) professionalism
4)swiftness
5)accountability
6)responsible
7)creativity
8)and so much more...
i have learned so much from cafe and from all the different ic's, teaching me different things and also to learn from my mistakes =) i guess beyond all the proffesionalism and work it is the heart behind it=) jamie once told me this, that if u want the best for cafe, you would be thinking on how to help cafe improve and it would be in this situation where with you,cafe is a better place!!=) so yes!! the (xing) counts!=)

last of all i am just so thankful for jamie who is constantly investing into my life and telling me how much she love me.besides that i am so thankful for my cg mates too, for supporting me when i needed them and also giving me those tight huggies telling me how much we missed each other!!=) its really very different... different people, different feeling...different friendship..=) LOVE YOU!! MUACKZ~!!

2006-05-23T18:21:00.000+08:00

in life, there are times where we have to make choices... through choices, comes true love... i love you..

Red Rain somehow ended up on the same day as my school family day.. somehow things is not going smoothly... it is compulsary...i am going to get detention or some other thing...besides tat i would really upset people in my class if i do not go...i really wanted to do my part for the class so i requested for morning shift where i could still go for both...but ,my request was declined... it ended up with drawing lots... i prayed... and indeed i got the morning shift..but some people were uncooperative thus causing them to arrange for us.. now i do not know which shift i am in but no matter wat happens i am still going for Red Rain... but still i am afraid of killing all my friendships in class...i noe i cant have the best of both worlds... i got to choose...
there is no delima.. i noe where i am going...i noe it in my heart, and i will not be wavered... i am going for the Red Rain concert because i noe it is where i really want to be,--lost in his presence once again...missing Red Rain means missing a chance to see a miracle come to pass where people's life are changed.. seeing those hands lifted up is a sight which would always be ignited in our hearts..such an amazing site... i can already picture it...but somehow, i really yearn for someone to assure me that i did the right thing, to tell me well done!! u have done well..

you are my NO#1!! you can neva be replaced... NEVA...to the ends of the earth...=)

2006-05-14T22:31:00.000+08:00

12/5/06
The vedio we saw todae was amazing... the atmosphere was so powerful!! that vision was undiscribable... a piece of art work...flawless.. so beautiful...

You make what seem impossible possible and even better!!

13/5/06
I went to polly's house to bake lazagna for Pastor Lia for mother's day. It was real fun!!=) we really should do this some other time soon!! Pastors said the lazagna was nice!! We even got a hug from Pastor each... it was such a wonderful feeling...
After that i was doing Building Maintainance(Bm) and again i learned something from Ivan. i was cleaning the dustbin in the art gallery when Ivan walked in and insisted that he wanted to help.. of coze i felt very pai sei... like i am suppose to clean up than i make people do like tat...(but it is real fun cleaning up dustbins... u guys must try!!) but he made this statement which really inspired me ' I really miss doing BM. It has been such a long time since i did it' it just felt like wow this guy is real amazing!! you can see how much he valued and love every single bit of the church and it was really like a home to him. It was that wantingness to serve out of love which many people really lack. some people serve as if it is a chore. but right now i challange all of u to start loving your ministry and serve whole heartedly with a passion like never before.. the feeling is so different and you really would learn much with that hunger=)

in the toughest time i still believe and have faith because that way, i know how much i need u and how much i depend on you...only you satisfy my soul, need and longing...

14/5/06
todae is mothers dae and my mum went for a wedding dinner so i ended up spending my time with jamie and after tat with yolanda's family... it was a real nice time... it was quality time spent together as a family which i have neva done with mine for the longest time...

i want to be more like you...

2006-05-08T11:31:00.000+08:00

4/5/06
hey peeps!! listen to this story...this is a conver from Ivan!! its real cool!!

one night i was lying on my bed and i had this spiritual encounter.Being a new christian, i was super freaked out... i didn't know what to do.. at that time i just knew shout and open up my eyes when i was lying on my bed.. and i was feeling this black mist moving towards me..when it came closer, i felt very suffocated..The closer, the more suffocated.Each time i closed my eyes, it felt like hands coming to suffocate me la! when i opened my eyes, it was gone so luckily,i had my handphone beside me which is quite funny because i don't usually put my handphone beside to sleep. i'll charge it on the table.. so, that night i had no way out and it was freaking late already... so i decided to call someone! i called Charleston first, but he was asleep. like what i was planning to do... so next person i thought of calling was Pastor Lia! but you know... i was a new christian and my mindset of a pastor is rather... i thought she's a distant figure like someone who won't relate but to cut the long story short... too freaky so i just dialled Pastor Lia's number. Pastor Lia answered la! wahhs..alright... this time abit funny she knew it was me... she knew something's happening and SHE KNEW I WAS FREAKED OUT BEING ON THE PHONE WITH HER also Pastor Lia was in the middle of something, she told me to wait for awhile while she leaves what she's doing. wow damn touched so she spoke to me... taught me about the power of the blood of Jesus taught me how to pray, and then prayed with me on the phone phrase by phrase, loved me and affirmed me.. touching man.. then after i prayed against that black mist, she asked me how i was feeling and all i told her i felt peace... but still abit scared... so she led me in another prayer this time she prayed and blessed me... prayed for protection for me. wow.. the phone call was super long then after that, shared with me what she feels about everything... and encouraged me to keep going on... she was sharing i just got onfire and things are happenening to stumble me so that night i slept .... WITH THIS PEACE i've never felt before the next morning, Pastor smsed me again encouraged me yet agian that changed a few things in me
1) my mentality of Pastors... not distant anymore... moreover it's like 1230am i called her i remembered.
2) I encountered God... that incident showed me how real God is basically everything brought me closer to God and closer to Pastors amazing right?
Many of them think that Pastors are some distant figure.. too busy... only talk to the leaders but that's all not true.. lengthen the cords!!! we have wonderful Pastors.Back in henderson we used to hang out in church after youth group (no service yet)... 12 to 2 and we'll hang out until evening. One sunday, a few of us were just lazing around, some sleeping, some playing games.. Pastor How came out of his office and spoke with us. Then seeing that we're bored, he played games with us, he gathered everyone.. and he thought us this game... chop chilli chop.That is how the CG game we play nowadays come about. so Pastor How played with us... then he was very funny...you have to understand last time, when you mention Pastor How, we all freak out... He came and his actions damn funny one he'll stand up.... turn around pinch his nose then all of us will be laughing like mad then he taught us another game so it was very amazing... just a good normal day... A Pastor came and played with kids... sec 1's oldest was sec 3 or 4 hmm i tell you one more.. anyway it's amazing la... who in the world will care about a couple of bored kids... All of us know that Pastor Lia's a softball player back then, there use to be this huge field behind the henderson building. One day after service Pastors brought us to play softball with her then Pastor How played soccer with us too it was damn fun la... we're all super young and it looked like a couple with their kids.. got one more funny one personal example..I was on PA and i was suppose to ASSIST pastor. That day Pastor ASSISTED his PA i didn't know how to iron his shirt. first time!!! he got to teach me and guess what? i melted his button EXPENSIVE SHIRT PLS i thought Pastor will kill me.but he just smiled and said he was very proud of me because i admitted but it was super funny hahaha then got one's about Dom. Dom was very tired one sunday because he worked late that sat night. After service he was dying already. Pastor got Dominic into their office and got him to sleep there while they do their work then i remembered they drew the curtains and all.. gave Dom blanket.. i entered the room and was like stunned then Pastor Lia went "SHHh!!!!!" one more..so funny la.. we didn't know how to dress up Pastor will bring us for shopping trips man then teach us what is what.. what's in and what's not which kind of shirt will suit us and which kind not. then once... Pastors were shopping and they thought of me. I received a call and they call me to go to their house so i went and they surprised me with a shirt. Black shirt with alot of funny colors infront. The leaders call it the peacock shirt. Pastor Lia was saying,"you know i walked passed the shirt and i thought to myself,"that's so ivan!"" Pastors do think of us alot man.. got another very fun one... one night.. there's superbowl Pastor How knew none of us watch american football but so funny he ask us if we wanted to watch accompany him so cool right like our friend so we went to his house at midnight and we ate and watched he taught us all the rules... all the strategies. He just thought of us and call us... casual thing... cannot make it nevermind one so you see... Pastors really treat us like their friends. Also got one occasion Pastor Lia called me Charlston Garrett Dom and Jian She ask us if we're free to go down to her house and have coffee we're like stunned. I and dom didn't go in the end but then i heard they chatted through until 3am and there'll be lots of occasion when we will be at Pastor's house and we'll fall asleep next thing you know, you have a pillow. damn cool la i was there at pastor's place.Once,they just went shopping. so they were showing me their clothes then they got few of us to try on all the clothes they bought like models man.. there's this once, Pastor brought me, dom and a few others to hyatt hotel to have dinner we were like... wow so ex la then we took very long to decide... i was looking at dom and he was looking at me don't know what to do then Pastor just said "just order.. don't worry about the price.." faints.. one nasi lemak was like 17 dollars! then after that we went CK TANG this time just walk walk Pastors will be holding hands then we'll be walking with them so cool then we went to the men's section... then the women's section then very embarrassing Pastors will be teasing us.. say next time will bring wife and have to follow them to women's section.. there's once we happened to eat at this indian restaurant at bukit merah centre we tried the tea there.you know Pastor Lia loves tea? it was super nice we went back and told Pastor there's this shop nad blah bvlah lahadsfdsa then she said,"we all go together" so that sunday after svc we went WE = WHOLE YOUTH CHURCH we packed the place man LIKE 60 or us? then so cool, i was with Pastor then they say, you sit in my car la so you can see this whole mob walking from henderson to bukit merah centre.oh ya... back then, there's this daytona craze. After service, Pastor will have their own outings with us there's this once we were at the arcade. then we all played daytona Pastor Lia trashed all of us la we were like AGAIN!!! but we lost again. Everytime we play we lost so funny man...Pastors play arcade where to find man oh ya... then when we were little boys, Pastor How will teach us how to carry ourselves. Same for the girls.. Pastor Lia will do it. how to talk... how to smile..lifeskills la..how to look attractive la.. just to tease us and all then i remembered after that meeting we went swimming we're suppose to swim for one end to another in one breath then PAstor How trashed us. then also, there's diving Pastor dives so nicely man hardly any splash!!! seriously.. then when we do it, it's like crap then very funny.. all of us will be in shorts then Pastor in trunks then he'll be like,"wow... why you all shorts... "MAN wear trunks..." from that day on, we won't shy anymore super funny la you never thought Pastors will be so funny and relational.. he just know exactly how we feel.there's this time, Pastor How had a very good deal i think fo buffet then he thought of us straight away he brought a few of us... those eat alot one.. with him then we just wack everything down la Pastor How was like giving up already then he was so stunned we could go on and on and on. oh i must tell you i went coldstorage with Pastor. He was topping up for the house.. so funny one... i won't understand a single thing.. Pastor will be teaching me all the diff kinds of vege and fruits... which brand of sauce's the best then when we're back in office he'll make salad then he'll get me into the office and treat me to some. many times don't dare to eat with them... there's this once Pastor cooked and call Jiaxin to eat also then Jiaxin was like eating at the kitchen than Pastor told her,"EAT WITH ME AT THE DINING TABLE!!!!!! YOU ARE NOT MY SERVANT!" when i heard that i was....I LOVE MY PASTORS MAN!!! many times Pastor Lia will tell us how much she respects us she'll say like she won't be able to do all the thigns we're doing now. lots more examples. Pastor Lia will share with me how she got to know Pastor How. that one super long la.. Then very cute and funny one next time!!!! then how Pastor Lia will think this guy is cute... hashas... funny la Then show us photos of the old Pastor How..tease Pastor How.. they really showed me what a real family is because many of us don't come from very good families.. oh recently... i was at coldstorage with Pastor Lia she was asking... vern you hungry initially i said no then we walked passed the section where they sell the pizzas, chicken, etc then Pastor Lia was telling me,"Vern ah... i buy we share?? want want?" then i was like..."oh man! so tempting..." so we bought... later Pastor Lia turned to me and say,"Say not hungry... see chicken already want to eat..." i didn't know what to say then we were in the car, eating the chicken so funny, Pastor How will be driving then Pastor Lia will feed him then when we're not doing well in school, Pastor will help us Get church ppl to teach us then there's this point of time she was looking for professional teacher to teach us. we went sentosa last year than Pastors will play basketball with us. really play tackle us, reject our ball , offer us suntan lotion alot of crap we all do together one last one. hmmm oh ya... some of us don't really come from very privileged family sometimes so we don't have money to eat at all. Pastor will give us money and tell us to go and have a good meal like parents lorz not always of course la... sometimes bring us to have dinner like for me, financially my family was not doing very well Pastor knew that i have no pocket money. one day when i was in church, they got me into their office and they share with me how they feel... loved me... tell me it's ok... and blessed me. ya lorz. Pastor can't stand seeing us depriving ourselves of things they don't want us to see ourselves lower than our peers because of our family backgrounds. damn cool that's all man i have lots more stories i'm very privilege to have a personal relationship with Pastors. you too. Pastor Lia have invested so much.. perhaps more into us la because we were there when the church is small. nowadays Pastors still do all these just that you guys may not know.yeah man... we always work with PAstors so here and there we know.

yup!! tats the conver... after reading all this... it just makes me think of alot of things... people always feel tat pastors are very distant figures.. but tats wat most people think.. most of the time we always put this barrier before us--a self-barrier, which cause us to abstrain ourselves, thinking tat they are too holy or they are boring to even talk to... but tats not the case at all... i mean just look at my pastors!! after reading this stories... i hope it gave everyone a new image of PASTORS=)i LOVE them... they simply just ROCK!!
there was this part where Ivan say Pastors are still going out with some of us just tat we donno... this brings me to another thought where Jamie shared with me tat she was eating with Pastors and a few more people at girraffe... this incident really does show tat they have been going out with people just tat few people knew bout it...and people think tat astors no longer do it.. this brings us to another point tat we have to lenghtened our cords to the leaders and they would always share with you about those amazing dinners with pastors where they can just recieve and learn so much from them.
another thing i thought about was the black figure...reading it over and over again build up alot of fear in me... i was just about to do my quiet time but fear was overwhelming me... i didnt even dare to close my eyes thus i could not worship him properly... i called polly because i have spoken to her not long ago, and she prayed for me and after tat i decided to pray strongly in tongues, worship God and pray for other people...haha.. though me and polly held the phone while doing all those i couldnt really feel the existance of it. the time was really meaningful and the Presence of God was strong

5/5/06
because of all those things tat happen(above) i slept at 4am in the morning... i didnt have school todae because i have no exams... but before i knew it my mum woke me up at 8am and was trying to get me out of bed to study and did not allow me to sleep.i was really tired and was having a throbbing headache.. when i told my mum i slept at 4 she said i must have spent the whole night having fun on msn talking nonsence... i was really quite pissed... like the night before i was having such a meaningful time talking to leaders, spending time with God and i was praying for her too! and she said i was having fun on msn tats why i had headache....but in actual fact i have been having headache for quite a long time already...just tat she didnt remember... but anywayz... she said some other stuff which made me cry... i just lay on my bed... asking God to help me to go back to sleep because i was wide awake and i couldnt sleep with tat headache.moreover i had other plans for te later put of the day and i certernly could not risk having a headache.each warm tear tat tinkled down remind me once again tat it is jotted in heaven wat each tear was for..as i lay there, i felt God's Presence hugging me, telling me everything was alright and tat He was there with me.i finally fell back asleep.=)

each leader has their own story to tell=) a life-changing story....

30 minutes later, i was awoken by my mother once again... this time she came stomping into my room looking for her room phone..and before i knew it... she started saying some stuff which hurt me again... this time it was rather bad... i was left lying helplessly on my bed... i stood up,and started stumbling towards the toilet(i couldnt walk straight) to wash my face, i decided to on christian music on the way back and than stumbled back to my bed again. anyone who had seen me than would have think tat i was on my way to a mental-emotional break down. as i lay on my bed i could not help but continued crying in the most unglam manner... my foot was banging the wall and all tat came out of my mouth was 'i dont want!! i dont want!!'i was just like a little girl crying out helplessly to my daddy up there. as the music played, i began to quieten down both inside and outside... once again his presence and love filled the entire room... there was a sudden peace inside me.The next thing i knew i was packing up my room and my sister entered.she asked me wat to do for mother's day... i think she was rather surprised because it was like a sudden peace tat was going on and she knew wat was going on with my mum just before tat too...i had no idea why she came to ask me about mother's day because it would have been the worst time... but somehow things worked out different then.. there is no other explanation but God...we can all feel it and there is no deniel...thank you thank you so much..

later tat daE, I went to meet Priska(really love her house),polly and yo... seeing her just makes me realise how much i have missed her..love you priska!!=)

in my life there is two incidents where i was left in my room crying out hysterically and so helplessly...not tat it was the worst situations in my life but are situations tat caught me unaware leaving me there helpless like a little girl. it probably would not have been so bad if it happened later in the day but it happened and woke me up. when people just wakes up, it is the time where they can be caught most unawared and unprepared for the trails of the world.one of the incidents happened real late in the night and this, real early in the morning.both times i cried out to God... and never once he failed me... he was always so ready to carry me in his arms telling me everything was all right.

I shared this stories to tell u guys how much HE loves you...go to him in times where u are caught most unaware at... dont forget him and try to handle everything in your own hands by your own strength..at the end of the day, u will realise all this incidents truly brings you closer to HIM.

2006-05-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

my life has been going through moments where just leads me to a break down...my family relations seems to be torn apart... my friendships in school somehow seems to be torn apart too..(just tat people dont realise and see it but i can feel it...) my studies is in a mess too.. looking at all this situation builds up alot of anxiety on how to get everything right back into place... onto track..and because so many things altogether has been put right at your face... u noe u have to rely on God but sometimes you actually dont really do it because u dont have tat total let go and let God handle EVERYTHING!! worst thing is you dont realise it...

he is my only source..

tomorrow is ss exams and i am still far backward... i felt like i wasted my whole dae because i wasnt feeling well and slept it through... and i needed to study right now! but i couldnt bring myself to do it because i decided tat i really really needed to ask for his strength.. i felt like i am standing on the edge of the cliff... i single slight push and i would be gone.. it is this short time of 7 to 8 minutes when i poured out to him and ask for strength and faith... bit by bit faith started to build up and rise...i have neva felt so comfortable in the longest time... a peace that surpasses all understanding...my yolk is easy and my burden is light...

thank you... thank you so much...

2006-04-30T08:21:00.000+08:00

there is only one place u can find solace when the oceans rise and thunders roar--under HIS wings=)

28/4
life has not exactly gone the way i wanted it to.. problems arise just when you are in the mids of something important... clashing u down..weighing you down..it gets too heavy for you to carry and it is only HE who can help and share your burden... relying too much on one's strength leads u to nowhere but with his strength u can carry on walking the path because u know u are not alone=)

later in the evening, my stomach hurt real bad.. it was real scary becuase it might be apendaxitis... doctors do not know why but either ways its alright because i am feeling much better already. Thats because YOU GUYS have been praying for me!!=) thanks guys!!

your LOVE amazes me higher than I can possibly dream or think of...

29/4
just before i slept yesterday, i told my mumi wanted plain porraige for breakfeast and i insisted that she cooked it... because she said 'i will buy it for u' and i said 'forget it.. its ok..' i really thought tat she wouldnt cook because she said she had to leave the house early in the morning and wouldnt be back till afternoon(she came back in the evening though)

today i woke up and went into the kitchen and found a large pot of porraige(it wasnt plain but it was the tastiest porraige i have ever tasted)and it dawn upon me tat my mum took that extra effort to cook for me out of the business of life.though sometimes we quarrell and all, but behind it, was love. That porraige had an eccent of my mother's love for me=) I LOVE YOU MUMMY!!! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!=)

everyday its YOU i live for..life would be meaningless without YOU=)

hey peeps wheather life is boring or meaningless, it is a CHOICE u make.. you dont have to leave with the circumstance of life but u can MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT.=) jia you!!

2006-04-26T16:04:00.000+08:00

hey people..its been long since i blog...
i realise something... my life is simply amazing..

24/7
i had nafa todae and we were running in the drizzle.. the teachers sad it was the best weather to run in.. but i dont feel so at all...

todae cheryl injured her foot while running... it really shocked us all..i guess many people felt the pain in their hearts when tat happen.. get well soon!!=)

on the way home it started raining real heavily so i went to ying zheng house to get an umbrella(she insisted on it..so scary plz)the rain turned into a one that could just sweep u away any moment.. from 1 metre away from a bus stop, i had an urge in me to shelter the people at the bustop home(people i dont know)altghough i was throughly wet from head to toe... despite having an enormous umbrella.. somehow i walked pass the bus stop and away from it.. as i walked away, i kept turning back battling in my heart weather i should go back anot... but i did not just because i was so afraid of the lightning and thunder... this phrase kept flashing past my head'you are saved for good works' the more i thought about it the worse i felt.guess this is an incident i would remember and would change my decisions next time.turning back to help those people despite my fears would really have been unconditional love-guess i gotta improve=)

TRUE LOVE only comes when there is a CHOICE=)isnt it great to still have him loving you at the end of the day, even when u feel like you have done the worst thing on earth.

25/7
everything was alright till the end of the day... my brother and mother started screaming over the internet connection. the dae before my sister fought with my brother over the same thing.. all this things simply hurts me so much... waking me up in the middle of the night..crying myself to sleep on the other night..

i was worshipping God when my mum and my brother started quarelling and i just started crying.. my heart hurts so much.. but as much as i cried my heart out to him, he filled my heart up with his love=)

go to him in times of happiness and in need.. not only when u feel like it.. he is not a spare tyre..

26 /7
todae i just got back my test results for my chem test(supposetly my best subject)guess wat... i failed...the next thing my teacher did was to hand out another test paper... i almost cried while doing it because i just felt so stressed up and i felt like i couldnt do it..so i was quite affected by it...(but when i check i got most correct)

many many things happened after tat, which helped me to see some things really clearly... rather tired but i finally see it.. thank God for my church friends.. i noe they will always be there for me encouraging me and pulling me on.. thinking of them really change my entire dae...

i didnt have my handphone today because i dropped it in my dads car.. and when anything happens, i would immediately tell jamie about it.. but todae i couldnt... but after awhile while thinking through all the friends i had, thinking of Jamie,yo,polly and the rest of the people just left me with a smile and wiped all that i suffered and found out for the past few hours... MY LIFE-LONG PARTNERS =)

always live life being led by God and the holy spirit.. Dont be mood-led.=)HE loves you more than u can ever imagine.=)

2006-04-11T02:06:00.000+08:00

his unconditional love can neva be replaced. His love dawns so strongly on me like never before.=)

there have been so many things going on in my life lately..which i have neva yet to experience before...truely this is a time of expension.. this period i have been going through under some emotional rollercoaster..crying like i have never before, loving like never before, experiencing like never before, feeling love like neva before,growing like never before it is a new experience each and everyday moulding me into what he wants me to be... i am proud and happy to be part of his plan=)

you would never leave me in times of needs.how much more can i ask for??

Sy Rogers Seminar was indeed powerful,impactful and life changing.. i cant wait for him to come back!! i want him...i have been introduced to this whole new idea of life,love and sex.. this friday and sunday is easter sunday!!=) sister evelyn(kid's central tv host) would be sharing her impactful life story... i am sure her life story would bringing stinging tears to everybody's eyes and motivate you to start saving all your friends and family..be sure to come!! it is life changing!!

it really pains my heart so much to see people treat you so cheaply after so much that you have done for us. my heart cries out for you. i am sure your pain would not be lesser but yet even more.

today has been a really tramatic day for me... during maths lesson.. jie wei was playing with zhang yi.. it just so happen tat when i was walking pass, jie wei's hand smacked my mouth and it became numb and started bleeding.. it wasnt alot of blood and it wasnt like killing pain la.. but still abit pain.. i feel like my lip is deformed or something...
next dumb thing i did was to not help cheryl open dustbin... how could i be so dumb... like please la... wats wrong with me... i can like be blind enough to not realise that she really needed help and was not joking... after that i still go ask the dumbest question if she was angry... like hello?? i think i just broke the world's genious record or something...

later that evening, i met jamie, yo and polly at potong parsei mrt to go yo house to pray.. seeing this people really comfort me for what happened the whole day.. it was really like being compensated or something...i felt so loved,cared for and just so good.. this people are really my life-long friends..
the worship-praying session was really good...God's presence was the real compensation for everything...i felt so good after tat.. it did not take away all my problems and worries but i guess u feel so refreshed and renewed to face the entire world again..
later, jamie, yo and me went to macs to eat.. we had such a fun time together... i really didnt want to leave... all this quality time spend together would never be replaced and it ould turned into memories that would be locked n my heart for life=)
i took yo yo ez link card for her coze she left it at the ez link tap card thing...when i reached amk mrt, i realise tat yo yo ez link card is still with me...it is like not the first time la... guess it is the me thing...
on the way home, jamie and me went to this shop to see the cloths.. hahah... so exciting... we are going to wear the same top this easter!!!=P haha!! yay!!JAMIE.YO.POLLY.FLEA we shall all wear the same thing=)most importantly was really the time spend with jamie..i feel so happy and blessed!!=)

polly your song is really nice=)i love it!! thanks dear!!=)

father i thank you for all the people placed around me in my life especially my pastors,leaders,parents,siblings and friends.Each and everyone of them matters much to me...

lastly,i just want to thank you Jamie for being such a good friend and leader.. thank you for loving me so much and giving me all the advices you could. you have greatly impacted my life.most importantly, i just really wanna thank you for being there for me in all this times of need.in times when i did something foolish, when i needed someone to talk to and through this period of tears... words cannot express my love and grattitude to you.. i guess i am just so lost of words..i am the fruit of your labour of LOVE!! we all are!! I LOVE YOU!!=)

2006-04-06T10:52:00.000+08:00

one day in his courts is better than a thousand days in the world.

hey people.. i am back!!=)
just wanna let all of u noe
nothing is gonna bring me down!!
because at the end i wanna sae:

I HAVE FOUGHT THE GOOD FIGHT
AND WIN THE RACE!!

yay!!=)
heehee.. even in times like this, thinking back on wat jamie say... i am not in the worse of case.. and it is true.. sitting down, quieting down my heart,thinking it through,i could see my mothers heart on how much she loved and cared for me..

though sometimes wat she says brings pain to my heart and tears to my eyes, it was out of the lost of what to do and found tat it was the best solution at that moment..

sitting down, talking to her, helped us understand each other better even though i still do not agree with her decision but i LOVE YOU mummy!!=) hope u like the tea i made for u!=)

Every tear you cry is precious in his eyes.He keeps every drop or tear in a bottle in Heaven and remembers what each tear is shed for.

2006-04-03T17:18:00.000+08:00

1/4/06
todae we were in church having word challange!! it was so exciting!! haha!!after the whole thing we went for dinner and later proceeded on to far east to cut my hair... my heart was thumping real fast i seriously dont noe wat is going to become of my hair..guess wat they did... they thinned it so thinned tat i feel i got no more hair.. yo yo cut her hair too!!=) actually it is not tat bad la!!

2/4/06
todae is dress up sundae in church!!=) we were all suppose to dress like nerds.. haha! i was having such a hard time with my hair... i am trying to to look nerd la.. but i kind of didnt suceed..last night i was kinda having some problems with my mum... thank God he was there for me.. so was jamie!!=)

3/4/06
todae didnt started out really well due to many factors.. in fact it was really bad.. but through all this tough and rough times, u actually begin to treasure your daddy up there even more than before... he is always there for me.. so will he be for all of u .. in times of need.. turn to him.. and u would be able his love really sheltering u all over again.

once,my friend told me to visit a website and spotted this amazing and touching clip on how people would blame God for everything in their life but tats because they only see one side of the picture.. every story has another side... but u would only find out wat happen if u border to turn the page over.. but God will always be there protecting you.. FOREVA AND EVA!!=)

click on the cross to view the clip =)

while reading the news papers todae, my teacher was talking about the law where same sex could marry each other.. i suddenly remembered of wat Pastor Lia said of the american women who changed america's school system from starting everydae with a prayer to a normal everydae with no prayer to God. after thinking about this, it led me to this thought..In genisis, God create 1 man and 1 women... if it was in God's plan to have a man and man together, he would not have created Eve and would have another man instead... we do love this people even when they love people of the same sex..but i guess it was the passion of that women who have coze such a big change in the younger generation of america..it not only affected her own country, but it affected other people as well..
HAVE PASSION!!POWER FOLLOWS AFTER THE PASSIONATE CRY OF YOUR HEART!!=)IT WILL PASS ON AND AFFECT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU!!=)

2006-03-29T19:05:00.000+08:00

wow... it has been a long time since i blogged haha!! this few weeks have been amazing... thanks guys!! i truely enjoy each and every moment spend with u all... be it alone or be it in a group, i proudly sae tat i love each and every one of you and every second spend was worth it!!=)

have been thinking alot bout love...
there are so many different kind of love u can have for someone...sometimes, love can be replace by things because people place things over love.. but a kind of love that will be with me foreva that would neva be exchange or replaced is HIS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
love for people...
people sae tat someone can love u yet not show it... but i feel tat if u love someone, your love for the person would naturally float up and turn into things u would do for someone..things of not wat you would notice, but some little deeds and acts the other person would be able to feel and notice..IT IS NOT ONLY THE SPEECH THAT COUNTS, BUT ALSO THE EXTRA MILE YOU WOULD GO FOR THE PERSON.how much would u do for someone u claim to love??
parently love
most parents actually do love their kids but somehow, wat seems to come out from them would only be asking about your studies etc... sometimes through this conversations, u feel like all that matters to them is your results and nothing more.. but this people actually do love u at the bottom of their hearts.. sometimes they just dont noe how to express it. but also noe this: it is their first time being parents.. they are just trying the best of their abilities to be what a parent.. sometimes we gotta read between the lines and we would be able to get the hint of them saying 'I LOVE YOU'

2006-03-23T18:49:00.000+08:00

todae when ying zheng and me was walking home from school, both me and ying zheng was so scared of the monkey on the tree tat we just grab each other's hands and started running.. haha!! it is so fun..haha!!
this reminds me of an incident when i was young..one dae i was going to the zoo with my family and my parents bought peanuts for us to eat.. than there were wild monkeys running around in the car park... i didnt noe wat it would do.. so i insisted on holding the peanuts...my entire family warned me bout the monkey take it alway i thought they were lying... so well stubon me... when i hold it, just in a minute, the monkey ran up to me, snatched my peanut!! all i could do wa to cry... my delicious PEANUTS!!aiya..
todae ying zheng and me had a really nice talk on many things... haha... we could finally have some time of our own to catch up..though the busy scedules we have.. i really enjoyed it!!=)haha!! we should spend more time together!! just wanna tell u i am always here for u!!i protect u ok?!?!haha!!love you!!=)*muackz!!*

2006-03-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

todae i went to the hospital to visit dom's sis.. opposite was a baby called shen long.. he was abused by his mother and had lots of drugs in him which is passed on from his mom through feeding.. well anywayz, both his mum and dad and are in jail .. it really hurts my heart to see him in that state... it was all not meant to be... we all wanted to adopt him but we are like under-aged and his mum wouldnt allow..i guess all i can do is to pray for him.. this would be the best gift i can ever gift to him but it is also a POWERFUL gift..

2006-03-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

haha!! this few daes have been really long and busy..but i cant remember wat happen already.. but i had alot of fun bonding and spending time with all my team mates although we had some unpleasent experience which i shall not bring up..=)
todae, some other girl said yl is cute again.. and she seriously sae something which r really... it just makes u speechless and wonder if she is a girl anot.. and someone can teach her how to not be so uncooth(howeva u spell it)and uncool to scold vulgur language... vulgur language=not high class. ok.. i am sorry its just i cant stand it just hearing about her makes me...ok i must love the unlovables...
hmm... todae i went to wen's house and its ultra big and nice.. i think some people are just too reach la!! well nvm.. at least i got treasures in heaven!!=) ok.. tats all... the past few daes got soooooooo many things happening... but it is hard puting them into words..

2006-03-12T00:35:00.000+08:00

todae is seriously quite an amazing dae..my dog ran out of the house at like 11pm-12 am and did not come back until todae when i call home at night to find out he finally came back.. i thought i lost my dog foreva='(
haha... word challenge was so fun and cool and i was like really scared but we didnt make it into the second round la.. but it was a great learning experience..
haha.. yes i didnt have to open cafe todae.. but had to do duty durin the break for bible study..
todae,some misunderstanding happened causing the atmosphere to be rather weird..before bs, i tried asking him wat was going on but he walked out of me.. i felt like crying..but i remembered i gotta be strong just like jamie did and wat i was facing was nothing compared to hers.after bs, i finally got to talk to him and after quite awhile he finally came out with he truth.
Boy,those warmth tears tickling down your face it matters to God and each and every tear is precious in his eyes. he keeps all your tears in a bottle in heaven and he noes wat every tear is shed for and he remembers it..tats how important you are to him..imagine noeing wat every tear was shed for from the dae u were born..i am sure you also cant rememeber..dont forget.. seek him, renew yourself and your strength in him, rely on him,never let him go,have faith and believe in your prayers and do not doubt..
PRAYER MOVES MOUNTAINS!!=)
MOVING IN THE SPIRITUAL REALM!!=)

2006-03-10T13:46:00.000+08:00

o man!! todae is the last dae of school... and guess wat!!! i am getting back my report book todae.. i am so scared la...
finally the time is here... and i failed 3 subjects-E maths,A maths and physics(which i really do not understand)so, i ask my friend to help me count my L1R5 and he scare me la... he sae i got 36!!i was devastated!! like o man!! why like tat!! than i went into the canteen someone and someone else help me to count and guess wat i got 26!!like 10 points less!! scary la!! but i must work harder la!! STUDY!! but last night my sister friend came into my room and talk to me about my studies... she told me to give up my anything outside my curiculm which meant church!! i noe it was out of concern but NO WAY!! thats wat our church is known for t do well in our studies while being active in church... so all the more i should study hard!!=)
now i am in church going to prac drums haha!! all the best to me.. i shall continue later on the rest of my dae!! haha!!ok!! gtg!! buaiz!!=)
ok.. i am back... this is the continue of my story.. i prac my drums which almost kill me.. i must seriously prac.. ok... anywayz... after tat i went into yeo chu kang swimming complex and invaded the RGS territory!!haha!! polly got booked for going out... but polly and pei rong took really good care of me!haha!! and polly showed me all the potential people.. but it was quite scary la... one diff uniform girl walking into the whole population of RGS girls...when the whole thing ended, polly and me wanted to treat pei rong to a drink but she refused and we insisted!!haha!! i am sure u can imagine the noisy sight..haha!!but ya.. as per normal la.. so when pei rong went we and polly went to macs for dinner and later went to watch a movie at amk... we watched THE DOG SHAGGY heehee.. ya... its not bad a show la ya..
but halfway through the movie yo sms to sae we got word challenge tomorrow... and its like the best coze cafe duty crashes with word challenge and i havent studied yet!! i am like making so many phone calls and everybody cannot make it.. o well... all the best to me man...

2006-03-09T19:09:00.000+08:00

haha!! went shopping with cheryl yesterdae.. it was really fun la.. bought so many things.. but met all soughts of people... some with really bad attitude some who were ok and some who were really nice.. well.. but my buys are good coze its cheap.. heehee..let see wat i have..
i bought:
-a earing stand so that my earings could be tidied up..
-4 pairs of earing
-1 formal jacket
-a black top
i think tats all... anywayz i took a cab to polly's house to collect some stuff than drop cheryl of at amk mrt than went back..the cab fair is so EXPENSIVE!!it cost 20 plus but i talked the uncle into 20 dollars.. ouch!! there goes my money... so sad la..when i went home to pack my stuff i realise i bought so many accesories recently so i MUST STOP!!! self control!!ok.. i think tats all for that.. but wat was the best was jamie told me to plan a outing!! so exciting!!haha.. i wanted to tell her the previous night that we can go to sentosa but i didnt la.. but in the end she told me to plan so just nice heehee... but on second thoughts... sentosa might not be a really good idea.. nvm.. i shall think..
todae i didnt go to school because i am not exactly feeling very well... when i woke up, i could feel the persence of God so strong in my room.. so i went to on christian music to worship him.. than read my bible... other than tat there wasnt anything much la... o i noe... i got this news... yun han saes yl is cute!! haha!!this is so funny..

2006-03-07T22:21:00.000+08:00

todae.. ok... i dont think school is very fun lah!! it was like a military school we r like being watched on every minute..hmm nvm.. not interesting.. but my whole class had our finger nails checked by our form teacher coze my nails were super duper long so she decided to check everybody elses..sorry everybody..
ok.. i did enjoy myself todae!! i went to church for dinner.. and it wasnt an ordinary dinner.. it was a dinner with the whole entire zone and also a farewell dinner for Dom and Esmonde who would be going to the army.. i am going to miss them...='( but well... we had alot of fun and people were dancing around and all.. we had pizza for dinner.. heeheehee..
wat i found most impcting todae was to read jamie's blog.it has been a long time since i read it and i realise tat when polly said she was reading jamie's blog and telling me how good it was and all.. and it is truely amazing.. i wanna replicate my leader.. she is so strong... i am sure i wouldnt have reacted the way she react if i were in her shoes.. there is really ALOT of things i gotta learn from her.. reading her blog would really touch u .. I LOVE YOU JAMIE!! u are my BIG leader!!=)the same like u were there for me i will do my best to be there for u!!=)we shall all laugh and cry together through rain,storms and the rainbows!!=)

2006-03-06T20:28:00.000+08:00

todae didnt exactly started out very well. first thing tat could happen was tat my entire family made me cry just before i went to school.after i reach school in the parade square i couldnt control so i kinda tear abit and sniffed abit... but the best thing was that the song came to me. the song tat went-every tear you cry is precious in his eyes. i cant confirm it is God talking to me but i was quite sure bacause i could feel his love embracing me...
when i returned back to class, i wanted to go to the toilet to wash my face up... the teacher apparently thought i was sleeply so sh didnt want to let me go.. i was like wat is her problem la... best of all she starte scolding the whole class... like wat is this??
when i went for the next period i felt better already but was still a little sore but i remember it is a choice to be happy so i made a choice and started to be happy!!=) i think i got a little high somewhere along the dae... i neva fail to do so la... hahaha.... yup!!
mrs chung scold me again as per normal... and she also sae shitling...but nvn... i am secure...u can make fun of my name man!! i am NOT AFFECTED!!wuaahahahahah!! TOO BAD!!
everything was fine until i realise on of my cca mate went for counsiling... when she got back, i found out tat her sec 1 best friend slapped her in sec two and they are still bullying her and taking advantage of her.. she is like in sec 3 already... like hello!! arent they tired?? i talked to her and all and tried injecting some things about christ... but i think everything else went in except tat.. but well... i hope i helped her... and i hope i have sewn the seed..
oh!!! and after cca when i went down to te atrium i realise i had left my a maths book on the table i had to climb all the way up.. and i cannot find it!! than i realise my book have been stolen!! like hello!! how can someone get so desperrate to that extend of stealing my textbook... my beloved textbook... o well i just gotta accept the fact and get a new one... but sigh la.. my BOOK!!!='( why like tat!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
ok... next... i have been so impacted by pastors sermon... its really like WOW!! ok... let me share with u .. o yes i watched passio of the christ on sundae in church.. u should seriously watch tat movie...

BIBLE STUDY
By GRACE through FAITH, we are saved. We are not saved by the good works we have done but by salvation which is a gift from God. In fact, we are saved for good works.
God’s love is unconditional. We do not have to fear that God will not love us one day cause of what we have done. Its because of God’s love tat we gain through freedom and have no pressure to perform well. For if we fail, he is still there for us.
There is also a BIGGER purpose in life than to just be saved. God has made plans for us even before we were born and is waiting for us to fufill it. At the end of the day, we will have treasures in heaven and what we receive will depend on the works we have done on earth. We have to ENDURE to the end!!=)
Another thing is that we have to be more Christ-like even to the small little things in life. Example attitude towards teachers and parents etc…

SUNDAY SERVICE
What impacted me is that we have to be faithful to all the small things before we can be entrusted with BIGGER and more important task. Leaders are people who are FAITHFUL to small things.. it is because they are so careful and detailed with everything and I am sure all this come from the bottom of their hearts.
Another thing that impacted me was that BIG people can step out of their own world and have a heart BIG enough to accommodate someone else and to really care for the person when in need and in help despite having your own problems…
BIG people should be playmakers. We help people to get higher and climb higher.
BIG people get inspired by people BIGGER than them.
BIG people love people and use things.
BIG people place character over reputation
BIG people know how small they are without GOD and how big they are with GOD.

BIG is such a short word but yet such a strong word... in this word it carries so much meaning..life changing.. building up..helping in my growth in christ.. this word is just simply so amazing!!

lalala

2006-03-03T19:53:00.000+08:00

o man..i was talking to yl on the phone last night and my mum said something that was not suppose to be heard.. it was so personal.. but yl heard it like no!!!! why like tat!! mummy is like the best la.. aiya.. than todae cheryl didnt come to school.. i miss her so much..GET WELL SOON MY DEAR!! but like seriouly.. I MISS HER!!!anywayz... i feel like i just got bullied in class todae..but not reaally la... i noe they were just playing... but somehow i got a bit pissed and i kinda slamned my foolscape on the table... but i was ok la... i wasnt seriously pissed .. and i thought somebody revealed something not suppose to be known... but i misunderstood.. I AM SORRY!!
anyway.. wats up with u guys calling me shitling.. like wat on earth... i heard it before la actually..leon ah leon... how could u paste such a thing on my chair... anyways... THANK YOU YL for taking it away!!=)
todae our CG was suppose to go to east coast park to play... but it was changedto a worship session... n i DIDNT go!! like why did i not go?!?! i made this out-it is not going to work if i keep making wrong decisions and regret it... i was suppose to study... but after an hour or so of studying i fell asleep.. than woke up watched a shoe and decided to do my QT... i was so unproductive... no good.. well but QT was good and i enjoyed it... i prayed to make better decisions... and i also want to be more servant hearted and to love more... but in the bible saes pray and believe, do not doubt in your heart and wateva u ask shall come to past. so yes!!have FAITH!!=)

yay!!

2006-03-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

hahahaah!! its a long time since i blogged...haha! anywayz.. i wrote a letter to my mum.. and it is ok between us already... she gave me a hug and said sorry.. yay!! haha... todae i got back my maths results and i failed both... so sian la.. but i am so happy coze i did a good deed todae.. i help an old lady carry two bags of really heaving things to the taxi stand and into the cab...ahaha!! yay!! heehee.. ok...gtg...

2006-02-27T18:36:00.000+08:00

haha.. so happy.. yesterdae KL came to church and he accepted jesus into his life!! haha!! one more soul added to the kingdom of God!!=)haha!!
todae i was almost late for school again... why always like tat.. haha.. hmm... tomorrow we are going to bowl... so exciting!!haha!!ok... i cant really remember wat to sae... this is short man.. btw i decided to write my mummy a letter..=)ok.. tonight i just quarelled with my mum again... this is an add-on... my whole entire family is not helping me.. i had to pour out my whole cardboard to find my cousins socks.. now everything is out.. i gotta back my whole room coze all my clthes is on the floor... wat is a family for.. i dont see a point of having mine.. it use to have a point.. now there isint.. everydae my mum makes me feel like crying.. this is seriously not going to work... thank God i got God.. i can move on..

2006-02-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

todae i went for my drums lesson.. after tat went for cafe than for bs.
during cafe, my mum suddenly called me and scream at me.. after being continuoesly yelled at for so many times and screaming back so many times too.. i felt so exhausted.. i didnt even bother to reply my mum i just sink into the nearest chair i could see... after awhile the phone hung up.. i was almost cloze to tears.. she called back and continued yelling.. i knew i was going to cry so i walk towards polly but before i could reach her i squat down and tears were welling up in my eyes i stand up again attempting to be ok but i took a few steps and just collaps on the floor and started crying.. than she hung up the call... i just cried la.. couldnt help it.. i have been tolerating it for so long already.. it just burst..
Thank God for all my friends and him.. they were all just so loving and caring.. thanks polly.. thanks for the hug and the listening ear.. tats wat i needed most than..and thank you sam for the tissue=)
what was best is tat during God but lynette once said tat we must grit our teeths and believe... actually i am quite sure it was him.. during worship, thoughts just came to my head bout my mum...'she dont love me'God said'but i love u...'she doesnt care' God said 'but i care', 'she is not there for me' God said 'but i am here for u'. it was just the best thing i ever needed... i felt so loved and cared for..
when i got home, my mum started screaming again.. she doesnt noe how much she have hurt me.. all she could do was to pour out wat she is disatisfied about... she doesnt realise she is so self centred. she can sae she is not all the time she wants but just doesnt wanna admit the fact. i really dont wanna talk to her.. at least not now... i dont want to hear anything else she wants to complain about.. i am quite sure some people will be like huh u cry just over this.. but your really donno the full entire thing of wat she does all the time... i think i am mad... after she scold me i was even thinking of buying cloths for her when i went into chomel.. and on the way home get scolded again.. i seriously donno wat to do with her... she is the one draining me and pulling me down... i made a decision todae that no matter wat i am not going to let her drag me down anymore... i am not going to miss stuff so often coze of her..
one thing she doesnt realise is tat i dont even find a single bit of love at home.. my home is just a house filled with emptiness... i cant find my sister again... she is always missing..but she doesnt realise tat is the more why i wanna spend time in church and outside.. with God.. i find it more meaningful and so much more love.. at least i feel i am going somewhere and tat i am changing and tat God pastor and my leaders are slowly moulding my life into a better one.. i love it this way and she can seriously stop robbing it away from me... without God, pastors,leaders,church and friends i am nothing.. nothing at all..i am an ordinary person with an EXTRAORDINARY GOD...
anywayz.. i think i can do it!! i will always remember i can do all things through christ who strengthens me.. i guess it will always keep me moving.. thanks guys for all your love and support.. and thank you polly,jamie,yewlee and leon and all the others who were there for me or someway or another encouraged me=)

2 in 1 day post =)

2006-02-23T19:32:00.000+08:00

ok... my tag for two daes again.. haha.. lets see... yesterdae cheryl came to my house .. haha we had so much fun going online tyalking to all the people... they are all so cute..=) and i am dying... everydae got test one...dont like!! hmph!! =(
todae i had e maths test.. i hope i pass la...dont wanna fail anymore=( cannot!! wat else... i got my chinese test back ... and guess wat?! i fail..=( sigh la.. again.. hmm... o yes.. i got my ss papers back... and i am so super angry which mrs chung..my ss paper can add marks one but she dont want so sian la... aiya.. just coze she dont like the way we wrote it... so wats with saeing want all to pass when she doesnt wanna help... sae one thing... do another thing...
todae got CG and Jamie shared with us about having a vision in life..so cool... i learn so much todae.. i am goinhg to have a life long vision soon... just ask long as i keep seeking GOD =) luve him!!=)now i am on CAFE duty!! exciting Huh?! =)
sigh... tomorrow got A maths test and Physics test... so stress la!! everydae got test... so TAO YAN!!! I MUST PASS!!! ok... gtg.. time to close up cafe =)

blabla

2006-02-21T18:57:00.000+08:00

todae i woke up at 2 just to do my compo.. so tired... haha... went back to sleep after tat... todae is an interesting dae!! haaha!!hmm!!! i am so happy... ss, physics and chem test are all postponed!!haha!! how much better can the dae get man!! haha!! ok!!
todae after school i went to amk with ying zheng to meet her mum and sis... we had so much fun together.. her mummy is so cute!!=)when me and ying zheng were walking back from buying curry puffs.. i weird old man came towards ying zheng and wanted to snatch the curry puffs away... so scarry la.. but nothing happen in the end...
wat else happen??hmm... we all wasted the whole period of maths todae...we were suppose to have health check up but they ended up checking only a few so the rest of us just sat there and slack... donno which guy cant remember was asking me if i put make up coze my cheeks were pink... i so DID NOT la!! and that kuang yu was pulling my shoe lace... weird la.. haha... during assembly we had to stay back coze we misbehaved.. sigh la.. i was dying of hunger... i didnt eat my dinner last night but had to fast todae i really couldnt taje it i already did not eat for 24 hours since the previous dae...i had to break my feast..=( i was feeling soooooooo hungry...
hmmm... something super funny happened todae...tat yewlee ah ... hahaha!! he didnt want to wear his full uniform for scouts dae tomorrow so he was asking me to make an excuse up for him coze we got test tomorrow cannot pon school.. than i said just pon... he sae his mum sae just tell teacher they got financial problems cannot buy... crazy la... i seriously selude the mother man!!haha!! and before i could stop him he threw his pants away already... no turning back le.. haha!!
ok... i am cat fighting on someones blog... so funny... ok... i must go help my friend... buaiz=)

2006-02-20T18:07:00.000+08:00

todae super pro i was suppose to wake up at 2am but i overslept until 6.40am like i am late for school not even to do work and study... i almost died la.. but the only thing tat could come into my mind was PRAY!! and it works la.. i tell u why..we are suppose to pass up english compo todae than i havent do coze i overslept..so i just wrote out some nonsence in 5 minutes to take as an excuse to write again.. i heard she wont let people push it to the next dae!! but she did!! isint it amazing... next lesson was maths i didnt bring my text book... i just had this thing tat i had to get a text book and true enough she scolded everyone without text books and took their names down... but later she sae who neva do work we all got scolded la.. coze nobody did... even if they did they went out of class to sit for fun hahah!! its the class thing la!! hahaha... but prayers truely moves mountains!!=) Amen!!
wat else... i am so sad... i failed my ss test even after studying... and my teacher seriously got some problem with me la... she shouted SHUT UP at me again la... crazy one i wonder wats wrong with her... and she is going to call my mummy coze i fail my test again... die la... i super scared la..later mummy dont let me go anywhere then best already... hmm... a maths test... i amazingly pass on the dot without studying.. hahaha... but there are 3 disgusting people called DARREN, YEW LEE and JIE WEI who got full marks!!! why they so smart one... so IRRITATING LA!!!! o i failed my english too... only 3 people pass with the highest score of 21/40 amazing rite??!! haha!!
todae is the first time going for IT Media meeting and oh my goodness!! it is so slack... but i learn the female head , male head and oh no i forgot the name head.. ya la.. hahah.. yup...
i am going to just die.. i got so many test tomorrow.. got SS retest,chemistry,physics,chinese and english compo test which i can do at home la... but on top of that i got my home work!!! help me!!! ahhhhhhhhh!! stress la!! i must grow BIGGER man!! tomorrow also got health check up la.. sigh la... haha... =)
ohman.. i want to write my 5 minutes compo here hee hee... here it goes:

Once upon a time, there was a tribe in HoHo land.In there were tribal people who lived in caves.
One day,when they work up, they found the town flooded. They were shocked and scared out of their wits.
"what are we going to do?!"
"I have no idea!"
" oh no!"
They started to pack all their stuff and left for a new place after a meeting with the whole tribe.
They travelled day after day. After 40 days and 40 nights, they finally found a place. A place where everyone wanted.
It was a place filled with food, milk, sweets and drinks. Food that never ran out.
They settled there and never had to worry bout food again and magically before any rain or storms came, the grounds would open to take all the water in.They had chocolate as their drink which flowed neva endingly.
Never would they expect that the flood was a blessing in disguise but if they were not determined enough to journey for 40 days and 40 nights, they would not have found the place either.
five minutes u noe??? hahaha!!i actually think it is quite impressive to come out with it in such a short time hahha... o ya... i remember something happen todae.. Ying zheng and me got bang sei-d by the sec 2 for IPW project work and oh my goodness it was so irritating la!! how could they do this to us man!!aiya.. but in the end we still got our group and i think its majority guys again... why like tat... i want my girlies!!
Leon!! stop changing my pics!! worst still into a criminal!! u best la!!!i shall remember this man!!scroll up for the photo..

regrets...

2006-02-18T18:14:00.000+08:00

todae..rosalin,ying zheng and me went to cheryl's house to do our CME project-creating a board game.. we had alot of fun.. had heart to heart talks and everything..
wat about todae tat was not good is tat i went to do my project instead of going for prac for dom's birthdae skeat.. so i guess i am not in it anymore.. wats worse was tat i did not go for bible study.. it is all so wrong.. wrong... i just missed a super good time tat i would have if i had gone..i feel tat i have dissapointed jamie and worst still God..
after having a good thought..i think its a problem with my value system.. if only i had perservered on... but there cant be too many if only's in life.. i shall have to change...i seriously feel super lousy..i know tat this cant go on if i wanna rise up so i haveto change doubly fast and i noe tat changing is a choice and i would rather choose it for the better..
jamie i am sorry..
but something good bout todae was spending time with cheryl and ying zheng..i cant wait for cheryl to slide back to God and for ying zhen to get save..i really love u guys..

my cut and paste entry...

2006-02-15T18:29:00.000+08:00

haha... this is an extract of cheryls blog.. but it is basically wat we did todae la haha!! u can see my name la.. ahhaah..here it goes.."SHI LING LOVES BOTH ME AND YING ZHENG EQUALLY!HOHO!went to tp with ying zheng,shiling and rosalin.wanted to do cme project.ended up talking.and shi ling taught me how to fold stars like YAY!I KNOW HOW TO FOLD STARS ALREADY!but its really out of shape one lahs.nvm.PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT!so im going to pulau semakau tomorrow.dont know whether will i get seasick or not.hope not.so SWEETS here i come!and i so dont want to go in learning groups.'cos im the only girl lah.saddening.ohs.we are going to look at rubbish.like WOW!-note the sarcasm.i mean even if the rubbish dont smell.you stink under the hot sun 'cos you pespire way too much.this is just an inference 'cos from the look and the thought of it i think its the way its going to be.evidence tomorrow.hoho!im trying to use my social studies skills here.this is a level 3.think so.LOL!shiling doesnt know that i know YUZHONG!its like so funny lahs.halfway she showed me an extract of her conversation with him.then yz nick was SEXILICIOUS.so i was like isnt that yz?!hahas!its such a small small singapore!"haha... yup.. i think this is it..
o i didnt get to go to cherie's house for belated valentines dae celebration-movie marathon... so sad la... sigh thanks to my mum who likes to complain here complain there one... sigh la.. haha!! tomorrow a maths test is cancelled so happy!! thanks to the field trip!!=)
some crazy guy just asked me for stead and the thing is i DONT KNOW who is he.. its like best la!!so scary...

VALENTINES DAE!!!

2006-02-15T00:27:00.000+08:00

hahaha!! todae is valentines dae.. i went to school with only 3 hours of sleep la.. so tired..ok.. i went to school without buying anyone anything.. i feel so bad... but i gotta sae my special thanks to all those who gave me your prezzies!!=)
1.Ying Zhen-lollipop with the letter which saes" i am yours" hahah!! u r MINE!!!
2.Seah Hui-mars bar, a folded heart and a letter which is really quite... hmm... haha..
3.Jean-2 folded hearts
4.Ferdiyana-lollipop and letter
5.Nadia-all the chocs and sweets!!
6.Linda-both letters and Tobleroni
7.Yew Lee-necklace =) thanks for the necklace i really like it.. promise i will wear=)
8.Eng kiat-Teddy bear and the ahem letter...
9.Matthaeus-stars which u folded personally.. thank you so much!!=) although i havent recieve yet.. but it is the thought tat counts.. thank you so much!!=)
10.Dale-the letter and the whole file of our stories.. it was really sweet.. thank u so much!!

haha!! ok i think tats all.. lets see wat else i did todae...hmm... i went to darrel's house to do the back drop... it was so fun i enjoyed myself!! we can like do this more often la!! haha!! mmm..although some incidents did happen but still overall had alot of fun.. after tat, Jamie,yoyo,linda ,polly and me went for dinner at night.. was suppose to go to esplanade rooftop but went to marina square instead... we totally malu-ated ourselves at burger king la!!(we call the manager handsome just to get our free meal.. it was so o no!! but haha! fun la!!btw we didnt get our free meal..) in the end went to KFC...than going home tat time.. me and polly waited for almost an hour for a cab but none came... like argh!! hahah!! yup.. ok.. in the end we took a MRT home and i got home so late... so tired la.. wanna faint already..actually i took a cab from the mrt coze i was too lazy to move..heehee.. ok!! gtg.. time to MUG for tomorrow's test!!=) stress ah!!! =l

entry for daez!!

2006-02-13T21:02:00.000+08:00

hahah...yesterdae was cozy cot sundae!! it was soooooo amazing!!=) the presence of God was really strong!!=) the place was really big too!! cant wait till we move to a bigger place.. but one thing was it is so hard to spot people=l
hahah.. but i still did enjoy myself plus the sermon=) BIG hearted,BIG minded,BIG givers,BIG thoughts,BIG capacity!! cool right?! =)
hmm.. now for todae..todae i didnt go to school.. and guess wat.. i went to see a doctor... and he sae my stomach is jammed so he had to give me medicine to do BIG BIG bisiness..hahah!! yup!!=)
hmm... wat else... cheryl seng!! bully me!! ahahaha!! and i told her i shall put wat se said on my blog hahah!!"cheryl cheryl is the best, cheryl cheryl beat the rat.wateva she do. she will do her best!!" haha!! which is refering to teasing me la!! hahaha!! but nvm!! i still love u!!=) o and i read your blog...haha!!ok tats all for todae... tomorrow is valentines dae!! haha! yaY!! =)

to my dearest polly

2006-02-11T01:45:00.000+08:00

Hey polly!! this is for you =)
cheer up ok?! jia you!!=)
dont forget that you have got all of us behind u..
wat the world may think is not important because wat God thinks is most important..
like wat u always tell me to make decisions tat makes God happy can already..=)

just wanna share this with you..
Jamie once shared this with me when i was really in my low times
'SMILE,EVEN IN THE STORMS,SMILE'=)
the same like wat jamie did for me i wanna do it for u!!
smile on girlz!!
i love you always!!=)

prayer meeting

2006-02-11T01:24:00.000+08:00

i woke up with a spinning headache todae.. and i really painful back ache..but i still dragged myself to school la... coze i think not worth it to waste my mc... keep it for another time..hmm..todae wats best was prayer meeting=) haha!!! there are really many things going through my head la.. couldnt concentrate at certain points of times.. but after tat can le...mmm... i also got prayed for in smaller groups haha!! i feel so blessed=) hee hee..hmm.. wat bout the meeting other than the other many many things ws tat i could really feel God's lovge for me and i could see his smile and his hands holding mine once again(i did not see it for a long long time)yup.. so when they played the i love u song it was like wa!!=) yup!! o yes... i got a prank call todae.. actually todae alot of things happen.. i talked to Jin shun through sms again.. so long neva sms le..haha.. then i saw them running cross a traffic light... than another 2 guys from my school on the same bus..than another 2 guys keep staring at me... crazy one..but singapore is seriosly too small la... o ya.. jian yi and yew lee... all the best for your night trail... haha!!=)

todae is "my" dae

2006-02-09T20:36:00.000+08:00

lets see todae i got scolded by my ss teacher for nothing... but i will remember this coze nadia owes me 2!! coze they sabo me one... do i always talk to myself?? why people keep saeing i talk to my self one...wait wait i wanna tell my story!! haha!!
mrs chung: shut up!! shut up!! shut up!!
someone from donno where shouts:someone point middle finger!!
Nadia:ya la shi ling!! why u point middle finger...
me: i where got point!! haha!!(why on earth should i point??)
ming xia: ya la shi ling!!
teacher looks at me...( i am like o no!!)
nadia:eh!! shi ling stop talking!!mrs chung!!she very noisy lei (i was like quiet la!!)
me: i started laughing..
mrs chung stares at me and saes: shi ling stand there!! pointing to the back of my chair which is at one corner of the class room...
after awhile...
nadia:why u point middle finger..
me: (laughing like mad) i where got point?!hahahaha...
mrs chong gave me another look than i started laughing like i didnt mean to la!! i just couldnt help it!!than she shouted: go and stand over there at the dustbin!! (pointing to the dustbin)
so scary la... i stand there she gave me some weird look...
after awile everybody sits down..she give out worksheet.. than she took mine and said tat she wanna photo copy...
me:wa!! she really hates me..wat did i do la!!
whole group donno sae wat than i laugh again..
mrs chung turns round and shout:shut up ok!! u like siao zha bo like tat!! keep your big mouth shut!! if u open your big mouth a again i will.... bla bla bla bla (i wasnt listening)
see!! its like totally not my fault!! i feel so innocent..ok la but i cant deny i was laughing very loudly.. haha!! heeheehee..
ok ok.. next topic...=)
todae i went to ying zhen house to study haha!! so much work to do.. i just want to faint la!! so tired!! cant wait for tomorrow... got prayer meeting!!=)
o yes.. i havent got to my point yet... its 'my'dae... why?? coze everybody was bullying me!!PE tat time no one wanna do and follow how i lead?? so soloist la!!='( than everybody during tat ss lesson onwards all bully me one.. i was so devastated... no one helping me...='( i want my mummy!!they all sae things in joking manner la... so i would sae bully but all so mean one... than the girls keep pairing me up with guys!! like oh my goodness!! why does tat always happen to me... than the other boys also started to sae me and tat guy especially tat PRESIDENT of the student councilor...(box all of u la!!) hmph!!

i am running out of titles for my post..

2006-02-08T22:59:00.000+08:00

its another dae.. well.. todae i am super tired i slept for only 3 hours only.. haha... ended up asleep in class as in really asleep that kind.. i tried keeping myself awake with sweets la... but its the first time it didnt seem to work haha!!
after school, i was talking to ying zhen at the locker there.. then miss lau ask us go help do the lou hae(chinese new year mix mix thing) haha!! it was quite fun la haha!! after that i met priska suppose to buy all the materials to make the cross but apparently, popular doesnt have.. so ya.. cant buy much... o man!! so many things to do!!
sigh.. todae night, i recieved a phone call.. my dad is leaving again for China!! i dont want!! i am so gonna miss him!! sighz~ i wanna cry..='(
i dont wanna do my work la.. i will just go school and die.. especially tat 3 dumb dumb news paper article on conflicts..like so sian one!! o no!!! tomorrow got PE!! i am going to hate it...
Yew lee thanks for your company haha!! and your nonsence Yew lee theory and all..but its seriusly quite funny la!! haha!! and the chinese nonsence talking too!! haha!!=)
o yes!! i just remembered this!! i saw a few tiaras todae!! haha!! me and my sis's friend decided to buy it for my sis's 21st birthdae last time... if anyone knows where to get some tell me!! i wanna see more designs!! haha!! my early thanks!!=)

read thiz!!! God's watching every moment of my life!! He takes care of me!!=)

2006-02-07T23:04:00.000+08:00

todae... hmm... todae i talked alot to ying zhen... and she told me so many things... so interesting haha!! but its suppose to be kept a secret so shhhhhhhhh!! hahaz!!=)o yes... when we were walking back, a super big branch from the tree dropped right in front of us.. if u noe me, u obviously noe i confirm will scream one... but i just thank God that he was protecting us la!! if it fell one me... i think your dont have to see me for quite a long time already... oyes!! and i went to ying zhen's house todae!!=)
in thenight, i went to nana's house for dinner with the rest of the CG!!=) we had so much fun!! we even made fondue for dessert!! haha!!dinner was good!! thanks Nana!!
ok.. i went home taking a train but decided to stop at yeo chu kangso tat i could spend more time with polly and priska.. it was really dark there at night so i decided to take a cab... the uncle went to hougang ave 2 instead of ang mo kio ave 2 which was super near la!! the cab fare was like ticking away... than i sms Jamie she asked me to pray... and true enough... i paid 3.50 only... especially doing wat i like!! i love to go for spins aroound in a car looking out haha!! i have no idea why.. haha!! must be one of my really weird thoughts and thing bout me!! haha!! ok yes!!
my nose just bled 12.02!! haha!! i will remember this man.. why it keeps bleeding recently ah.. so irritating la.. sigh... anywayz.. i just bought 5 new watches!!=)haha!! ok gtg!!=)

what a dae!!=)

2006-02-06T20:29:00.000+08:00

hmm!! haha!! todae is a new dae!! haha!!todae my class got quarell again.. haha!! why always like tat one so funny...
HIGHLIGHT no.1: my class boys bao-to me and tell mrs chung i eatin burger... like thanks to all of them la!!
HIGHLIGHT no.2:CCA is cancelled!! but still had to go for AGM meeting... but left half way..
HIGHLIGHT no.3:it was raining with the bright bright sun todae... i cannot go home =(
HIGHLIGHT no.4: there were so many people from different schools todae and wats best is that i got friends from those schools so i just went high and just started saeing high and talking nonsence to them haha!! i even ask this SJI guy help me do my maths but i got no idea wat he is writing..so i think no point..let me make this clear i ask soooooooooooooo many peps before tat.. all donno how to do one.. sae one more thing.. the guy told me he will be back on tuesdae and sae if i needed help can find him!! haha!! i was like question mark la!! haha!! but still... yup!!and one more thing i am NOT FLIRTING ok?! i repeat myself... i am NOT FLIRTING!! dont get me wrong... was only trying to find out if they knew my friends anot.. but so malu la.. i neva even ask all the peps i knew...i only asked 2 out of 6 or more other schools tat i knew people from...see!! i not siao siao one ok?!?! hmm!!
HIGHLIGHT no.5: i really cannot remember anymorez... so no more highlights.. hahaa.. o yes!! i spent time with Ying Zhen and Cassandra in school haha!!=) ok.. gtg study.. so stress la!! so many test coming out.. they just want our lives dont they??!?!!

ups and downs and all arounds

2006-02-05T21:59:00.000+08:00

o my goodness!! all i want now is SLEEP!!
slept at 5am this morning waiting for Andrew's reply...
woke up at 8.30am...
went to plaza singapura for breakfast(burger king-my breakfast which tasted so good!! satisfying man!!)
than met huimin... andrew suppose to come but neva come.. super dissapointed..
anywayz.. had a good time worshipping God in church todae and the message was really good..i am so surprise i didnt feel tired at all during sermon even sleeping for 3 1/2 hours...amazing ok?!?! breakthrough!!=) anywayz, Jamie saez tat we should improve more one humility as a CG.. so yup!! humility it is!!lets improve on it!!=) o ya!! one thing... i am so happy todae!! both Dale and Huimin bought their own bibles todae..heehee.. haha.. wat more can i ask for..=P
mmm.. todae i did BM(building maintanance) and like oh my goodness i was wearing short skirt!! i just wanted to faint la!!its the last thing u will wanna wear to vacuum the carpets!!so difficult to move around carrying the things..
what else??? hmm... todae during service, worship.. out of no where i felt a sting in me.. i felt like i could feel how priska felt..the pain..its unexplainable and i donno where it came from... all i felt like doing was to hug her when i saw her worshipping God.. but after service, we were all so busy with our things tat i didnt even get a chance to sae goodbye to her.. o man... sould have did it earlier and faster..
todae, i also attemted to talk to ah gong and daniel bout the schools revival.. but yet again some excuses here and there... so disappointing once again.. sigh... but nvm.. at least i am fighting this spiritual-natural battle with God... i am not alone =)
last of all, todae i met Tawan and Jian fan from cat high.. haha!! yup!! nice peps from church and i just realise they have been in church for quite some time.. but i only know them todae...this is so not good la.. i shall be more sociable and nice man..haha!!=)
ok... i just got scolded by my mum once again... i cannot stand it anymore.. she is really makin me bao zha..she can scold me from one thing to another.. like wat the...question mark rite... sigh.. anywayz..tats all..
luv ya all!!=) muackz!! heex..=P

2006-02-03T22:33:00.000+08:00

todae.. school again.. almost late.. was too tired to wake up..hmm todae is a total slack dae.. lessons were barely lessons except for a few.. ok.. i got 3 test papers back todae.. and it is really gross..
had cross country.. like i said doing scoring neva run.. bla bla bla.. mm.. went home.. cooked maggie noodles for dinner(how sad and pethetic)watched a dvd(my fav) =) was online and ya.. i guess there were some other interesting details but unfortunately... i cant remember..
hmm.. well i just got scolded by my mum because my sis(who is the oldest) is not picking up her phone and is not back home yet, coze my bro(also older) claims to have a headache and didnt go to school and now he is like playing is com game again.. like why am i getting scolded for wat they did??ok la.. i got kope the house phone my mum angry coze cannot call my sis.. but still coze of my sis... why like tat one... sigh..
nvm.. coze Jamie was there to encourage me.. and the way Yewlee talk so funny.. make me laugh.. haha!! so i guess i am feeling a little better though..but i am stress with my drums lessons tomorrow..can someone help me?? =l

2006-02-03T22:32:00.000+08:00

one out of my another dae..

2006-02-02T20:45:00.000+08:00

hmm.. lets see.. todae i slept for around 3-4 hours.. super tired la!! almost died in school..i was sleeping in between classes!! i would like catch anytime i could to sleep la.. todae i also walk around alot before entering the next class coze i was so tired than dont want to listen to teacher talk anymore..(very sian one) haha.. no one better noe bout this.. haha..(ok... than why did i even write in my bloggie right?? aiya.. i siao siao one..) but anywayz,todae during A maths and physics lesson, we had a change of position in where we sit again...i think coze we either too noisy, too dumb or something la.. haha..than lesson same old usual stuff la.. boring boring lessons~ =l but during physics lesson.. we had a quarell going on in class by the same girl again.. (she just scream at her sis a few daes back in the same lesson) i think the teacher quite poor thing la haha!! coze she is new and she is only taking relieve lessons for another teacher than gotta meet up with this kinda situation.. haha!! but it was kinda entertaining la coze the way they said things were really funny.. and this Yewlee ah.. haha!! trying to find death only.. he go answer the girl who was like bao zha-ing.. haha!! so funny la!! let me teach u this: neva underestimate the powess of a girl/woman!! haha!!learn ok?! =P
wats next?? o yes.. tomorrow we r having cross country... i was planning to walk la... but now i dont even have to walk coze my ex-co of student counsilor(are u wondering why i am even i student counsilor??haha!!) ask me go take down the scores.. so happy haha!!yay!!
o ya!! one more thing i remember.. during e maths lesson todae the people behind me went to hide my bag la.. they tell me its in the dustbin i donno true anot la haha!!i got it back la anywayz..they were passing round joking comments la so it was kind of a joke but i didnt really like it though.. kinda felt irritated..but anywayz... one of the girl who took my bag made such a big fuss and got so pissed when her bag too was taken away to hide.. some taste of her medicine(i didnt noe anything.. really.. i am not the mastermind) thanks to the guy who hid both our bags.. but the thing is she did it to me i didnt even react that way.. she abit the.... we shall not sae... anywayz.. i shall love the unlovables lah!! haha!! ok .. i shall physco myself to love her.. oh gross!! yuck!! but ok..i shall jst be nicer to her la ok..
todae, my school had a rugby match..the boys from the other school were playing among themself when the real match was going one... donno wat they trying to do la!! but they ball hit onto charmaine's nails and my nose la!! how sad!! its like so pain can... and i just had nose bleed 2 days ago.. yup..
last of all it ended up not so pleasently.. when my dad was driving on the road to recieve a call,he got so angry with i donno who.. but i thought it was my mum but found out it wasnt.. scary la.. i was like oh no!! si le!! ya lor.. after tat finish changing my hp plan my dad sent me home and i fell asleep on the way back.. was just to tired =l

what a dae...

2006-02-01T19:44:00.000+08:00

hmm.. lets see.. i didnt wanna go to school at all todae and i really wouldnt have gone if not for *ahem coze if i didnt go to school, i would not be able to go to chruch after tat to meet *ahem.. so this is the dae in school for me.. first thing first i found out tat my skirt got some iron mark on it because i donno who iron it and left tat mark there and i exclaimed so loud tat everybody around me including the teachers thought tat i was scolding the discipline mistress.. so malu la.. next thing tat hAppen in the parade square was tat i got caught for my painted nails.. its like super duper malu... when i went back to class i got another lecture from my form teacher bout my nails again..how "good"can this dae go?? well after that we had PE.. My PE teacher went abit mad todae and made us change in and out of PE attire and full school Uni than run here run there in a certain time limit, do pumping,sit ups run again so on and so for..so tired la!! trying to kill me only!!i dont think anything else interesting happen la!! other than staying back in school last period coze the teacher like to "play play"..
yes!! now to "ahem" i shall not go into details la.. but i really feel very sad coze i feel like i have been taken for granted.. i really lousy after trying to help her.. wats worse is tat she is the one who made me feel so.. so many things happened and its just so hard to discribe and put it into words..so much for worrying and loving her.. sigh~ nvm!! i shall not let it pull me down.. anywayz i gotta replicate the heat of my leader!! love her even more!! be happy even if all this happen!!*smile,even in the storms,smile* thank goodness this phrase came to me!! thank u jamie!!thanks for the phrase!!=)luv ya!! i forgot to announce this!! i have divorced with my "husband" a few days ago!! haha!! ok.. i think tats all for now..

last dae of chinese new year=)

2006-01-31T22:15:00.000+08:00

o man.. i realise i always forget to set the date and time of my post... but nvm.. haha!! todae i was trapped with my family =l coze i came home late last night.. so sad la.. cannot go visiting with the rest of my cg and people.. anywayz.. i had alot of fun too.. i went to my aunts house for lunch,than to another aunts house to meet everybody-other aunts and cousins and we headed towards another cousins house for house warming... haha...one thing... i learnt how to play bride todae!! haha its addictive.. actually i always knew how to play la.. but too long neva play must refresh memory..haha.. hmm... wats interesting todae??actually i cant really think.. o well wat can i expect... family members..haha!! but some of my cousins are really funny though... othe than tat..haha.. i cant find anything else to sae.. o ya.. i just remember.. my nose just bled haha!! ok... i think tats all=) buaiz for now!!

2nd Dae of New year..

2006-01-31T22:02:00.000+08:00

lets see.. the only thing i can remember for todae is tat i met my ko kor-lucio with his other two friends =) kor kor played the drum maniac thing in the arcade tat dae.. it was so cool la!! kor kor so zai one!! haha!!=P o!! one more thing yoyo danced para para!! she also super zai la!! haha!! dale danced para too!! o man.. i am getting my memory back.. yes!! ok... first, Jamie,polly,andrew,dale and me were at ps waiting for Kor kor to knock off his workie.. we all made stuff for him coze we heard he was sick.. see!! we so nice right?! ahah!!=P hmm.. after tat andrew and kor kor went home than polly, dale and Jamie came to my house for steamboat where only me and polly ate.. so funny la!! haha!! o ya!! i called nicole ngiam and he promise to reply me when i sms him coze he neva reply all the previous messagei sent him la!! he better reply man!! or else muahahahah!!
later tat night,we went to lucio house to visit him(yoyo joined us)than we all went to bugis(except polly)and than like wat i said earlier.. we met his friends, played land(counter strike)and bla bla bla.. haha.. i think tats all for todae la!! haha buaiz!!=)

My FiRsT DaE oF cHinEse NeW yEaR!! =)

2006-01-31T18:00:00.000+08:00

haha!! so fun so fun!!i collected so many ang pao's todae!! haha!!and i got to dress up to!! wuahahaha..ok first i went to my dad's house.. and oh my goodness!! he gave me the biggest sum of money in a angpao i have ever seen in my entire life so far la!!so cool right?! haha!!but i wont sae how much =P hmm.. next i went to my da gu house..her cookies were like really good!! and i realise that she noes my friend-jian yi who just stays down the road.. isint singapore just too small??haha!! anywayz, after tat i went back to my dad's house to have lunch.. oh man i was like super full la!! but no choice gotta eat..yup.. we waited for like super long but some of my cousins havent arrived yet than my mummy and my kor kor so angry no choice gotta go home..my brother even went home by himself first la..lets see wat did i do when i went home?? o ya!! i watched my girl- a korean serial show =)than after tat i was so tired so i went to sleep.. we went to my wai puo house for dinner and once again i was so super full but still had to eat!! why like tat one?!?! o ya.. but than i went to my cousins house which was downstairs and she gave me really nice accessories!! i so happy!! hahaha!! hehe!!=P

The best part of the dae is this!! haha!!i went for supper with a total of 8 people!! so fun la!!ok let me tell u who was there-Jamie,yoyo,dale,dexter,nic toh,lucius,Hong yi and samuel..hehe.. we had fun drinking suger cane(which i always sae bamboo for donno wat reason),playing cards and the best was spending time together!!=)later,dale,lucio and me cabbed home..and i think tats all.. at leati think..o i noe!! we tried persuading lucio to stay longer with us but i guess it didnt work la coze he was to tired and had to rest for his work the next dae.. yup yup!! =) but we all really had a fun time!! =)*this is for 30/1/06 but i came home to late so yup!!writing in the early mornings on 31/1/06)

Wednesday 25/1/05

2006-01-25T20:48:00.000+08:00

todae,while i was scrolling through my email, i got an email about my long lost blog.. I have created like so many blogs but i kinda neglet them after awhile well, lets try it again!! haha!! =) hmm first, todae i almost died with my chem and a maths test!! its like a total killer and worst still tomorow i have got a social studies test!! i dont want!! n i have got to do my a maths work la.. this is all like a whole entire new thing to me.. always burning my midnight oils.. sigh~ hmm.. lets see wat else did i do todae?? i was at far east with Jamie, yoyo and polly and we met so many people there la.. singapore is really super small can?! ahah!hmm... o yes!! i am so angry with the sales person at far east la!! they sold to me a bag which was like spoilt a week ago..todae when i went back, they refuse to give me a change of bag!!but also coze i neva bring the reciept la haha!! so not entirely their fault..i think todae got so many more things tat happen..nvm.. i will write longer next time.. but i so happy coze my "husband" is happy todae!! he won his badminton tournament and also went for his music class which he enjoyed but at the same time feel trash la!! haha!! but nvm!! there is always something new to learn!!=)