Wednesday, March 29, 2006

wow... it has been a long time since i blogged haha!! this few weeks have been amazing... thanks guys!! i truely enjoy each and every moment spend with u all... be it alone or be it in a group, i proudly sae tat i love each and every one of you and every second spend was worth it!!=)

have been thinking alot bout love...
there are so many different kind of love u can have for someone...sometimes, love can be replace by things because people place things over love.. but a kind of love that will be with me foreva that would neva be exchange or replaced is HIS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
love for people...
people sae tat someone can love u yet not show it... but i feel tat if u love someone, your love for the person would naturally float up and turn into things u would do for someone..things of not wat you would notice, but some little deeds and acts the other person would be able to feel and notice..IT IS NOT ONLY THE SPEECH THAT COUNTS, BUT ALSO THE EXTRA MILE YOU WOULD GO FOR THE PERSON.how much would u do for someone u claim to love??
parently love
most parents actually do love their kids but somehow, wat seems to come out from them would only be asking about your studies etc... sometimes through this conversations, u feel like all that matters to them is your results and nothing more.. but this people actually do love u at the bottom of their hearts.. sometimes they just dont noe how to express it. but also noe this: it is their first time being parents.. they are just trying the best of their abilities to be what a parent.. sometimes we gotta read between the lines and we would be able to get the hint of them saying 'I LOVE YOU'

todae when ying zheng and me was walking home from school, both me and ying zheng was so scared of the monkey on the tree tat we just grab each other's hands and started running.. haha!! it is so fun..haha!!
this reminds me of an incident when i was young..one dae i was going to the zoo with my family and my parents bought peanuts for us to eat.. than there were wild monkeys running around in the car park... i didnt noe wat it would do.. so i insisted on holding the peanuts...my entire family warned me bout the monkey take it alway i thought they were lying... so well stubon me... when i hold it, just in a minute, the monkey ran up to me, snatched my peanut!! all i could do wa to cry... my delicious PEANUTS!!aiya..
todae ying zheng and me had a really nice talk on many things... haha... we could finally have some time of our own to catch up..though the busy scedules we have.. i really enjoyed it!!=)haha!! we should spend more time together!! just wanna tell u i am always here for u!!i protect u ok?!?!haha!!love you!!=)*muackz!!*

todae i went to the hospital to visit dom's sis.. opposite was a baby called shen long.. he was abused by his mother and had lots of drugs in him which is passed on from his mom through feeding.. well anywayz, both his mum and dad and are in jail .. it really hurts my heart to see him in that state... it was all not meant to be... we all wanted to adopt him but we are like under-aged and his mum wouldnt allow..i guess all i can do is to pray for him.. this would be the best gift i can ever gift to him but it is also a POWERFUL gift..

haha!! this few daes have been really long and busy..but i cant remember wat happen already.. but i had alot of fun bonding and spending time with all my team mates although we had some unpleasent experience which i shall not bring up..=)
todae, some other girl said yl is cute again.. and she seriously sae something which r really... it just makes u speechless and wonder if she is a girl anot.. and someone can teach her how to not be so uncooth(howeva u spell it)and uncool to scold vulgur language... vulgur language=not high class. ok.. i am sorry its just i cant stand it just hearing about her makes me...ok i must love the unlovables...
hmm... todae i went to wen's house and its ultra big and nice.. i think some people are just too reach la!! well nvm.. at least i got treasures in heaven!!=) ok.. tats all... the past few daes got soooooooo many things happening... but it is hard puting them into words..

todae is seriously quite an amazing dae..my dog ran out of the house at like 11pm-12 am and did not come back until todae when i call home at night to find out he finally came back.. i thought i lost my dog foreva='(
haha... word challenge was so fun and cool and i was like really scared but we didnt make it into the second round la.. but it was a great learning experience..
haha.. yes i didnt have to open cafe todae.. but had to do duty durin the break for bible study..
todae,some misunderstanding happened causing the atmosphere to be rather weird..before bs, i tried asking him wat was going on but he walked out of me.. i felt like crying..but i remembered i gotta be strong just like jamie did and wat i was facing was nothing compared to hers.after bs, i finally got to talk to him and after quite awhile he finally came out with he truth.
Boy,those warmth tears tickling down your face it matters to God and each and every tear is precious in his eyes. he keeps all your tears in a bottle in heaven and he noes wat every tear is shed for and he remembers it..tats how important you are to him..imagine noeing wat every tear was shed for from the dae u were born..i am sure you also cant rememeber..dont forget.. seek him, renew yourself and your strength in him, rely on him,never let him go,have faith and believe in your prayers and do not doubt..
PRAYER MOVES MOUNTAINS!!=)
MOVING IN THE SPIRITUAL REALM!!=)

o man!! todae is the last dae of school... and guess wat!!! i am getting back my report book todae.. i am so scared la...
finally the time is here... and i failed 3 subjects-E maths,A maths and physics(which i really do not understand)so, i ask my friend to help me count my L1R5 and he scare me la... he sae i got 36!!i was devastated!! like o man!! why like tat!! than i went into the canteen someone and someone else help me to count and guess wat i got 26!!like 10 points less!! scary la!! but i must work harder la!! STUDY!! but last night my sister friend came into my room and talk to me about my studies... she told me to give up my anything outside my curiculm which meant church!! i noe it was out of concern but NO WAY!! thats wat our church is known for t do well in our studies while being active in church... so all the more i should study hard!!=)
now i am in church going to prac drums haha!! all the best to me.. i shall continue later on the rest of my dae!! haha!!ok!! gtg!! buaiz!!=)
ok.. i am back... this is the continue of my story.. i prac my drums which almost kill me.. i must seriously prac.. ok... anywayz... after tat i went into yeo chu kang swimming complex and invaded the RGS territory!!haha!! polly got booked for going out... but polly and pei rong took really good care of me!haha!! and polly showed me all the potential people.. but it was quite scary la... one diff uniform girl walking into the whole population of RGS girls...when the whole thing ended, polly and me wanted to treat pei rong to a drink but she refused and we insisted!!haha!! i am sure u can imagine the noisy sight..haha!!but ya.. as per normal la.. so when pei rong went we and polly went to macs for dinner and later went to watch a movie at amk... we watched THE DOG SHAGGY heehee.. ya... its not bad a show la ya..
but halfway through the movie yo sms to sae we got word challenge tomorrow... and its like the best coze cafe duty crashes with word challenge and i havent studied yet!! i am like making so many phone calls and everybody cannot make it.. o well... all the best to me man...

haha!! went shopping with cheryl yesterdae.. it was really fun la.. bought so many things.. but met all soughts of people... some with really bad attitude some who were ok and some who were really nice.. well.. but my buys are good coze its cheap.. heehee..let see wat i have..
i bought:
-a earing stand so that my earings could be tidied up..
-4 pairs of earing
-1 formal jacket
-a black top
i think tats all... anywayz i took a cab to polly's house to collect some stuff than drop cheryl of at amk mrt than went back..the cab fair is so EXPENSIVE!!it cost 20 plus but i talked the uncle into 20 dollars.. ouch!! there goes my money... so sad la..when i went home to pack my stuff i realise i bought so many accesories recently so i MUST STOP!!! self control!!ok.. i think tats all for that.. but wat was the best was jamie told me to plan a outing!! so exciting!!haha.. i wanted to tell her the previous night that we can go to sentosa but i didnt la.. but in the end she told me to plan so just nice heehee... but on second thoughts... sentosa might not be a really good idea.. nvm.. i shall think..
todae i didnt go to school because i am not exactly feeling very well... when i woke up, i could feel the persence of God so strong in my room.. so i went to on christian music to worship him.. than read my bible... other than tat there wasnt anything much la... o i noe... i got this news... yun han saes yl is cute!! haha!!this is so funny..

todae.. ok... i dont think school is very fun lah!! it was like a military school we r like being watched on every minute..hmm nvm.. not interesting.. but my whole class had our finger nails checked by our form teacher coze my nails were super duper long so she decided to check everybody elses..sorry everybody..
ok.. i did enjoy myself todae!! i went to church for dinner.. and it wasnt an ordinary dinner.. it was a dinner with the whole entire zone and also a farewell dinner for Dom and Esmonde who would be going to the army.. i am going to miss them...='( but well... we had alot of fun and people were dancing around and all.. we had pizza for dinner.. heeheehee..
wat i found most impcting todae was to read jamie's blog.it has been a long time since i read it and i realise tat when polly said she was reading jamie's blog and telling me how good it was and all.. and it is truely amazing.. i wanna replicate my leader.. she is so strong... i am sure i wouldnt have reacted the way she react if i were in her shoes.. there is really ALOT of things i gotta learn from her.. reading her blog would really touch u .. I LOVE YOU JAMIE!! u are my BIG leader!!=)the same like u were there for me i will do my best to be there for u!!=)we shall all laugh and cry together through rain,storms and the rainbows!!=)

todae didnt exactly started out very well. first thing tat could happen was tat my entire family made me cry just before i went to school.after i reach school in the parade square i couldnt control so i kinda tear abit and sniffed abit... but the best thing was that the song came to me. the song tat went-every tear you cry is precious in his eyes. i cant confirm it is God talking to me but i was quite sure bacause i could feel his love embracing me...
when i returned back to class, i wanted to go to the toilet to wash my face up... the teacher apparently thought i was sleeply so sh didnt want to let me go.. i was like wat is her problem la... best of all she starte scolding the whole class... like wat is this??
when i went for the next period i felt better already but was still a little sore but i remember it is a choice to be happy so i made a choice and started to be happy!!=) i think i got a little high somewhere along the dae... i neva fail to do so la... hahaha.... yup!!
mrs chung scold me again as per normal... and she also sae shitling...but nvn... i am secure...u can make fun of my name man!! i am NOT AFFECTED!!wuaahahahahah!! TOO BAD!!
everything was fine until i realise on of my cca mate went for counsiling... when she got back, i found out tat her sec 1 best friend slapped her in sec two and they are still bullying her and taking advantage of her.. she is like in sec 3 already... like hello!! arent they tired?? i talked to her and all and tried injecting some things about christ... but i think everything else went in except tat.. but well... i hope i helped her... and i hope i have sewn the seed..
oh!!! and after cca when i went down to te atrium i realise i had left my a maths book on the table i had to climb all the way up.. and i cannot find it!! than i realise my book have been stolen!! like hello!! how can someone get so desperrate to that extend of stealing my textbook... my beloved textbook... o well i just gotta accept the fact and get a new one... but sigh la.. my BOOK!!!='( why like tat!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!
ok... next... i have been so impacted by pastors sermon... its really like WOW!! ok... let me share with u .. o yes i watched passio of the christ on sundae in church.. u should seriously watch tat movie...

BIBLE STUDY
By GRACE through FAITH, we are saved. We are not saved by the good works we have done but by salvation which is a gift from God. In fact, we are saved for good works.
God’s love is unconditional. We do not have to fear that God will not love us one day cause of what we have done. Its because of God’s love tat we gain through freedom and have no pressure to perform well. For if we fail, he is still there for us.
There is also a BIGGER purpose in life than to just be saved. God has made plans for us even before we were born and is waiting for us to fufill it. At the end of the day, we will have treasures in heaven and what we receive will depend on the works we have done on earth. We have to ENDURE to the end!!=)
Another thing is that we have to be more Christ-like even to the small little things in life. Example attitude towards teachers and parents etc…

SUNDAY SERVICE
What impacted me is that we have to be faithful to all the small things before we can be entrusted with BIGGER and more important task. Leaders are people who are FAITHFUL to small things.. it is because they are so careful and detailed with everything and I am sure all this come from the bottom of their hearts.
Another thing that impacted me was that BIG people can step out of their own world and have a heart BIG enough to accommodate someone else and to really care for the person when in need and in help despite having your own problems…
BIG people should be playmakers. We help people to get higher and climb higher.
BIG people get inspired by people BIGGER than them.
BIG people love people and use things.
BIG people place character over reputation
BIG people know how small they are without GOD and how big they are with GOD.

BIG is such a short word but yet such a strong word... in this word it carries so much meaning..life changing.. building up..helping in my growth in christ.. this word is just simply so amazing!!

o man..i was talking to yl on the phone last night and my mum said something that was not suppose to be heard.. it was so personal.. but yl heard it like no!!!! why like tat!! mummy is like the best la.. aiya.. than todae cheryl didnt come to school.. i miss her so much..GET WELL SOON MY DEAR!! but like seriouly.. I MISS HER!!!anywayz... i feel like i just got bullied in class todae..but not reaally la... i noe they were just playing... but somehow i got a bit pissed and i kinda slamned my foolscape on the table... but i was ok la... i wasnt seriously pissed .. and i thought somebody revealed something not suppose to be known... but i misunderstood.. I AM SORRY!!
anyway.. wats up with u guys calling me shitling.. like wat on earth... i heard it before la actually..leon ah leon... how could u paste such a thing on my chair... anyways... THANK YOU YL for taking it away!!=)
todae our CG was suppose to go to east coast park to play... but it was changedto a worship session... n i DIDNT go!! like why did i not go?!?! i made this out-it is not going to work if i keep making wrong decisions and regret it... i was suppose to study... but after an hour or so of studying i fell asleep.. than woke up watched a shoe and decided to do my QT... i was so unproductive... no good.. well but QT was good and i enjoyed it... i prayed to make better decisions... and i also want to be more servant hearted and to love more... but in the bible saes pray and believe, do not doubt in your heart and wateva u ask shall come to past. so yes!!have FAITH!!=)

hahahaah!! its a long time since i blogged...haha! anywayz.. i wrote a letter to my mum.. and it is ok between us already... she gave me a hug and said sorry.. yay!! haha... todae i got back my maths results and i failed both... so sian la.. but i am so happy coze i did a good deed todae.. i help an old lady carry two bags of really heaving things to the taxi stand and into the cab...ahaha!! yay!! heehee.. ok...gtg...