Friday, June 23, 2006
=)
yesterdae was an accomplished day!!
its the first time of the whole entire holiday i feel that i did not waste any minute of my day=)
i am real happy
i had a GREAT talk with Pastors too!!=)
really learn alot from pastors.
and u really can see pastors heart for people.
on how much they love each one of us!!
i love my pastors!!
last night we all stayed over in church
i have been hitting my ceiling where i just want more of God but somehow it doesnt happen
as we stayed over and began to worship him out of desperacity
he began to come.
before we ended worship,
i decided to just talk God.
and it was really amazing.
"i am desperate for you Lord"
"Daddy why are you not speaking to me for so long? why am i stuck here?help me. i dont want to be stuck here. i want more of you and i need more of you."
and he replied me and said
"remember those days where you would come to me over the smallest matter like a little child saying 'Daddy, i.......' and how i would reply you?"
"that is what is missing in our relationship now"
"those times where your would sing me praises all the time"
"those days where you would come to me over the smallest issue of your life or even a decision to make"
"come back my daughter."
yup so this is my conversation with God which is so absolutely SWEET=)
today i had i meeting.
a new journey is going to start.
i am a fortunate girl.
but at the same time i am afraid too.
but i will keep praying.
after leaving the soccer challange i went to watch a movie with my primary school friend
and i got to admit
i did not que up for the tickets
lucio got it for me!!
thank you soooooo much!!
i enjoyed the time spend with sheryl...
by next year she will be my fist and only 10-year friend!!
yay!!=)
and i met justina and priska too!!
had Ben and Jerry's ice cream!!
went out for dinner with my dad after tat
i am a happy girl!!=)
i love you daddy up there!!=)
yesterdae was an accomplished day!!
its the first time of the whole entire holiday i feel that i did not waste any minute of my day=)
i am real happy
i had a GREAT talk with Pastors too!!=)
really learn alot from pastors.
and u really can see pastors heart for people.
on how much they love each one of us!!
i love my pastors!!
last night we all stayed over in church
i have been hitting my ceiling where i just want more of God but somehow it doesnt happen
as we stayed over and began to worship him out of desperacity
he began to come.
before we ended worship,
i decided to just talk God.
and it was really amazing.
"i am desperate for you Lord"
"Daddy why are you not speaking to me for so long? why am i stuck here?help me. i dont want to be stuck here. i want more of you and i need more of you."
and he replied me and said
"remember those days where you would come to me over the smallest matter like a little child saying 'Daddy, i.......' and how i would reply you?"
"that is what is missing in our relationship now"
"those times where your would sing me praises all the time"
"those days where you would come to me over the smallest issue of your life or even a decision to make"
"come back my daughter."
yup so this is my conversation with God which is so absolutely SWEET=)
today i had i meeting.
a new journey is going to start.
i am a fortunate girl.
but at the same time i am afraid too.
but i will keep praying.
after leaving the soccer challange i went to watch a movie with my primary school friend
and i got to admit
i did not que up for the tickets
lucio got it for me!!
thank you soooooo much!!
i enjoyed the time spend with sheryl...
by next year she will be my fist and only 10-year friend!!
yay!!=)
and i met justina and priska too!!
had Ben and Jerry's ice cream!!
went out for dinner with my dad after tat
i am a happy girl!!=)
i love you daddy up there!!=)
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
yesterdae was such a fun day
haha..although my group was one of the last two groups
and we had to eat that 3 loaves of bread
it was still an amazing time together=)
it just made me realise how much i love each one of them
and how thankful i am for each one of them.
by the way,
let me tell u a secret...
i got phobia of plain breads since young..
so please dont make the forfiet eating bread again...=)
my little family is where we do crazy little things together, cry together, laugh together and many others=)dont u just love it coze i am enjoying every second of it=)
i was just going through all the letters i use to recieve and write
and i realise i was engaged in really small talks
but reading it through brings back a flood of memories to me
some brought smiles,
some brought tears,
and some brought stab in my heart and back
neva did i know that my somewhat best friend was just talking big when nothing was actually going on
fooling me, fooling herself...
i would neva have realise if i neva read them again
i was so naive then to realise anything
but it really pains my heart
but it just makes me realise how blessed i am now
to have my daddy's unconditional love
as well as pastors,leaders and churchies love.=)
daddy i love you=)you are always there for me when i need u most.through tears and joy i'll trust in you=)
i was also reading a card from my cousin and it said:
"a journey starts with a single step. each day is a gift... so full of oppotunities..live each day to the fullest,make it the best days of your life.turn your vision and dreams into action and do not forget to enjoy the journey."
yup!! i think it speaks alot. and thats it for now=)
haha..although my group was one of the last two groups
and we had to eat that 3 loaves of bread
it was still an amazing time together=)
it just made me realise how much i love each one of them
and how thankful i am for each one of them.
by the way,
let me tell u a secret...
i got phobia of plain breads since young..
so please dont make the forfiet eating bread again...=)
my little family is where we do crazy little things together, cry together, laugh together and many others=)dont u just love it coze i am enjoying every second of it=)
i was just going through all the letters i use to recieve and write
and i realise i was engaged in really small talks
but reading it through brings back a flood of memories to me
some brought smiles,
some brought tears,
and some brought stab in my heart and back
neva did i know that my somewhat best friend was just talking big when nothing was actually going on
fooling me, fooling herself...
i would neva have realise if i neva read them again
i was so naive then to realise anything
but it really pains my heart
but it just makes me realise how blessed i am now
to have my daddy's unconditional love
as well as pastors,leaders and churchies love.=)
daddy i love you=)you are always there for me when i need u most.through tears and joy i'll trust in you=)
i was also reading a card from my cousin and it said:
"a journey starts with a single step. each day is a gift... so full of oppotunities..live each day to the fullest,make it the best days of your life.turn your vision and dreams into action and do not forget to enjoy the journey."
yup!! i think it speaks alot. and thats it for now=)
Monday, June 19, 2006
I don't need anything else but you. Now i have much to live for,die for and to give my very all.=)
hey all...
i was just reading my bible when i took out my old notebook to check some stuff...
as i flipped through each page reading them,
a few topics caught my attention.
once in a bible study by Pastor How,
he preached about The Heart Of Leader
and one part of it has this question:
"Do you care enough to mourn if your friends backslide?"
it just makes me really wonder what are some people thinking about
because sometimes they really dont care.
having one person leave doesnt mean only loosing a soul and a destiny but many!!
friends around who could have been save!!
even if it was just A Soul and A Destiny it still matters!! in fact, ALOT!!
and continueing to that it says:
"what makes you cry and laugh indicates a reflection of your value system and character!!"
so ya... tats it...
as i continue to turned to the back, i read on spiritual attack
the last point was:
"Betrayal-one who builts the walls with you, who fought the war with you and was close to you and later betrays you.The most potent attack which hurts most."
when i read this i felt so much and i really really dont want to see it happening... it hurts my heart so much. especially sometimes some reasons aren't even reasons but lies and excuses.
iloveyou.iloveyou.iloveyou.iloveyousomuch.iloveyou.iloveyou.iloveyou.
hey all...
i was just reading my bible when i took out my old notebook to check some stuff...
as i flipped through each page reading them,
a few topics caught my attention.
once in a bible study by Pastor How,
he preached about The Heart Of Leader
and one part of it has this question:
"Do you care enough to mourn if your friends backslide?"
it just makes me really wonder what are some people thinking about
because sometimes they really dont care.
having one person leave doesnt mean only loosing a soul and a destiny but many!!
friends around who could have been save!!
even if it was just A Soul and A Destiny it still matters!! in fact, ALOT!!
and continueing to that it says:
"what makes you cry and laugh indicates a reflection of your value system and character!!"
so ya... tats it...
as i continue to turned to the back, i read on spiritual attack
the last point was:
"Betrayal-one who builts the walls with you, who fought the war with you and was close to you and later betrays you.The most potent attack which hurts most."
when i read this i felt so much and i really really dont want to see it happening... it hurts my heart so much. especially sometimes some reasons aren't even reasons but lies and excuses.
iloveyou.iloveyou.iloveyou.iloveyousomuch.iloveyou.iloveyou.iloveyou.
Friday, June 16, 2006
ok...
i am the sadest girl for the moment...
my phone is spoiled.
i change to dale phone.
saved all the contacts into sim card
but too many contacts.
sim card cannot contain everything
auto deleted.
i lost ALOT of contacts and some contacts cannot get back anymore='(
sigh... ok...
yo says i have to be BIG
but i cant get over it!!
aiya but besides that
today is quite a smooth dae=)
the hands of God was on todae
things went smoothly and the way we wanted it to
and i met a new friend=)
not bad eh..
muahahaha...
continueing from the post...
i had so much fun with my brother todae
i am my brothers teacher!!
haha!!tats coze i read his text book from him..
he is trying to like answer with sarcastic understanding
but ya... hahaha!!
i am currently eating nugguts from macs
haha... my brother bought 20pcs nugget for us to share!!=)
i am not that sad after all!!
Thursday, June 15, 2006
hey all!!
i am now at POLLYNA LAI's house!!
hahah!!!
we went to ngee ann this morning
had a really good time with jamie!!
yup!!
i am a real happy girl!!=)
but i am still grounded...
lalala
thats all for now!!
see ya!!=)
Fel loves you*=)
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
THIS ARE MEMORIES THAT WILL NEVER BE LOST=) LOVE YOU!!
huggies to my brother!!=)
u are the BEST!!
though i am grounded,
my mum allows me to bring my brother for a haircut
so yup!! i went with him todae
and i had such a great time catching up with him=)
we chatted about so many things
from hair,eye bags,loosing weight to studies,future occupation and the girl he would like
though my brother always tells me how much he dont love me,
but i can tell he does.
just by small little actions.
he was telling me on how i really should start studying
and said although he doesnt listen in class in the end he studies ultra hard to make up for it
and he tells me not to do it though..coze its not good and not right...haha!!
but ya... it just shows that he cared...
and guess wat
on the way home my slippers broke (my dumb moo moo slippers!!but it is half repaired now)
and my brother gave me his slippers
and he ended up walking with one foot on the rocky road
it just touched me alot
because he has neva done anything like this before for me
and use to always envy people with those nice, loving, gentlemently brothers
but who knows!!
i have 1 right beside me
and its enough for me.
so yes!! this entry is dedicated to my brother!!=)
thank you!! i LOVE YOU!! =)
though i am grounded,
my mum allows me to bring my brother for a haircut
so yup!! i went with him todae
and i had such a great time catching up with him=)
we chatted about so many things
from hair,eye bags,loosing weight to studies,future occupation and the girl he would like
though my brother always tells me how much he dont love me,
but i can tell he does.
just by small little actions.
he was telling me on how i really should start studying
and said although he doesnt listen in class in the end he studies ultra hard to make up for it
and he tells me not to do it though..coze its not good and not right...haha!!
but ya... it just shows that he cared...
and guess wat
on the way home my slippers broke (my dumb moo moo slippers!!but it is half repaired now)
and my brother gave me his slippers
and he ended up walking with one foot on the rocky road
it just touched me alot
because he has neva done anything like this before for me
and use to always envy people with those nice, loving, gentlemently brothers
but who knows!!
i have 1 right beside me
and its enough for me.
so yes!! this entry is dedicated to my brother!!=)
thank you!! i LOVE YOU!! =)
muackz~*
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
its time for some changes...
i guess there is no point typing it out here..
but to really do it instead..
there is so much inside me now..
but i guess i have to work it out somehow..
its ok because i got God.
i have just been looking back and seeing so many flaws..
they were covered behind all the fun..
but right now its staring right at my face..
change is a decision not a process..
no longer a chameleon
but someone working for great,strong and Godly character
no longer blend into any environment around
but be the light of the world, pass it around and influence people
no longer push the blame
but do the work
thank you jamie=)
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
wa.. its a long time since i blogged..well recently things arent going that smoothly... my results are in a total mess and i got myself grounded.. worst thing is that i miss the emerge conference session 2 where my PASTORS shared their testimony... now i have to STUDY and get VERY GOOD RESULTS for acedemic excellence anyway i should really train my mind eh...
i went away on a malacca trip and when i got home my dearies called me... those familiar voices just gave me such a warmth in my heart... its so good to be home!! i just felt like those people were people who really cared and love me=) my life long partners...
and to all, i am making this annoncement of having a new god bro named KEITH YEO.. haha... we met outside the sc room before those boring meetings that i really hate. but well its worth it to get myself such a good brother and to know another two guys too!! they really are like little brothers=)
i have just been thinking alot about cafe where it is really a training ground to really be servant hearted...u really cannot fake it because every small single little detial matters..Cafe teachers you to be:
1) faithful to the small things
2)put your heart into wat you do and doing it to the best of your abilities
3) professionalism
4)swiftness
5)accountability
6)responsible
7)creativity
8)and so much more...
i have learned so much from cafe and from all the different ic's, teaching me different things and also to learn from my mistakes =) i guess beyond all the proffesionalism and work it is the heart behind it=) jamie once told me this, that if u want the best for cafe, you would be thinking on how to help cafe improve and it would be in this situation where with you,cafe is a better place!!=) so yes!! the (xing) counts!=)
last of all i am just so thankful for jamie who is constantly investing into my life and telling me how much she love me.besides that i am so thankful for my cg mates too, for supporting me when i needed them and also giving me those tight huggies telling me how much we missed each other!!=) its really very different... different people, different feeling...different friendship..=) LOVE YOU!! MUACKZ~!!