Sunday, April 30, 2006

there is only one place u can find solace when the oceans rise and thunders roar--under HIS wings=)

28/4
life has not exactly gone the way i wanted it to.. problems arise just when you are in the mids of something important... clashing u down..weighing you down..it gets too heavy for you to carry and it is only HE who can help and share your burden... relying too much on one's strength leads u to nowhere but with his strength u can carry on walking the path because u know u are not alone=)

later in the evening, my stomach hurt real bad.. it was real scary becuase it might be apendaxitis... doctors do not know why but either ways its alright because i am feeling much better already. Thats because YOU GUYS have been praying for me!!=) thanks guys!!

your LOVE amazes me higher than I can possibly dream or think of...

29/4
just before i slept yesterday, i told my mumi wanted plain porraige for breakfeast and i insisted that she cooked it... because she said 'i will buy it for u' and i said 'forget it.. its ok..' i really thought tat she wouldnt cook because she said she had to leave the house early in the morning and wouldnt be back till afternoon(she came back in the evening though)

today i woke up and went into the kitchen and found a large pot of porraige(it wasnt plain but it was the tastiest porraige i have ever tasted)and it dawn upon me tat my mum took that extra effort to cook for me out of the business of life.though sometimes we quarrell and all, but behind it, was love. That porraige had an eccent of my mother's love for me=) I LOVE YOU MUMMY!!! THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING!!=)

everyday its YOU i live for..life would be meaningless without YOU=)

hey peeps wheather life is boring or meaningless, it is a CHOICE u make.. you dont have to leave with the circumstance of life but u can MAKE THE BEST OUT OF IT.=) jia you!!

hey people..its been long since i blog...
i realise something... my life is simply amazing..

24/7
i had nafa todae and we were running in the drizzle.. the teachers sad it was the best weather to run in.. but i dont feel so at all...

todae cheryl injured her foot while running... it really shocked us all..i guess many people felt the pain in their hearts when tat happen.. get well soon!!=)

on the way home it started raining real heavily so i went to ying zheng house to get an umbrella(she insisted on it..so scary plz)the rain turned into a one that could just sweep u away any moment.. from 1 metre away from a bus stop, i had an urge in me to shelter the people at the bustop home(people i dont know)altghough i was throughly wet from head to toe... despite having an enormous umbrella.. somehow i walked pass the bus stop and away from it.. as i walked away, i kept turning back battling in my heart weather i should go back anot... but i did not just because i was so afraid of the lightning and thunder... this phrase kept flashing past my head'you are saved for good works' the more i thought about it the worse i felt.guess this is an incident i would remember and would change my decisions next time.turning back to help those people despite my fears would really have been unconditional love-guess i gotta improve=)

TRUE LOVE only comes when there is a CHOICE=)isnt it great to still have him loving you at the end of the day, even when u feel like you have done the worst thing on earth.

25/7
everything was alright till the end of the day... my brother and mother started screaming over the internet connection. the dae before my sister fought with my brother over the same thing.. all this things simply hurts me so much... waking me up in the middle of the night..crying myself to sleep on the other night..

i was worshipping God when my mum and my brother started quarelling and i just started crying.. my heart hurts so much.. but as much as i cried my heart out to him, he filled my heart up with his love=)

go to him in times of happiness and in need.. not only when u feel like it.. he is not a spare tyre..

26 /7
todae i just got back my test results for my chem test(supposetly my best subject)guess wat... i failed...the next thing my teacher did was to hand out another test paper... i almost cried while doing it because i just felt so stressed up and i felt like i couldnt do it..so i was quite affected by it...(but when i check i got most correct)

many many things happened after tat, which helped me to see some things really clearly... rather tired but i finally see it.. thank God for my church friends.. i noe they will always be there for me encouraging me and pulling me on.. thinking of them really change my entire dae...

i didnt have my handphone today because i dropped it in my dads car.. and when anything happens, i would immediately tell jamie about it.. but todae i couldnt... but after awhile while thinking through all the friends i had, thinking of Jamie,yo,polly and the rest of the people just left me with a smile and wiped all that i suffered and found out for the past few hours... MY LIFE-LONG PARTNERS =)

always live life being led by God and the holy spirit.. Dont be mood-led.=)HE loves you more than u can ever imagine.=)

his unconditional love can neva be replaced. His love dawns so strongly on me like never before.=)

there have been so many things going on in my life lately..which i have neva yet to experience before...truely this is a time of expension.. this period i have been going through under some emotional rollercoaster..crying like i have never before, loving like never before, experiencing like never before, feeling love like neva before,growing like never before it is a new experience each and everyday moulding me into what he wants me to be... i am proud and happy to be part of his plan=)

you would never leave me in times of needs.how much more can i ask for??

Sy Rogers Seminar was indeed powerful,impactful and life changing.. i cant wait for him to come back!! i want him...i have been introduced to this whole new idea of life,love and sex.. this friday and sunday is easter sunday!!=) sister evelyn(kid's central tv host) would be sharing her impactful life story... i am sure her life story would bringing stinging tears to everybody's eyes and motivate you to start saving all your friends and family..be sure to come!! it is life changing!!

it really pains my heart so much to see people treat you so cheaply after so much that you have done for us. my heart cries out for you. i am sure your pain would not be lesser but yet even more.

today has been a really tramatic day for me... during maths lesson.. jie wei was playing with zhang yi.. it just so happen tat when i was walking pass, jie wei's hand smacked my mouth and it became numb and started bleeding.. it wasnt alot of blood and it wasnt like killing pain la.. but still abit pain.. i feel like my lip is deformed or something...
next dumb thing i did was to not help cheryl open dustbin... how could i be so dumb... like please la... wats wrong with me... i can like be blind enough to not realise that she really needed help and was not joking... after that i still go ask the dumbest question if she was angry... like hello?? i think i just broke the world's genious record or something...

later that evening, i met jamie, yo and polly at potong parsei mrt to go yo house to pray.. seeing this people really comfort me for what happened the whole day.. it was really like being compensated or something...i felt so loved,cared for and just so good.. this people are really my life-long friends..
the worship-praying session was really good...God's presence was the real compensation for everything...i felt so good after tat.. it did not take away all my problems and worries but i guess u feel so refreshed and renewed to face the entire world again..
later, jamie, yo and me went to macs to eat.. we had such a fun time together... i really didnt want to leave... all this quality time spend together would never be replaced and it ould turned into memories that would be locked n my heart for life=)
i took yo yo ez link card for her coze she left it at the ez link tap card thing...when i reached amk mrt, i realise tat yo yo ez link card is still with me...it is like not the first time la... guess it is the me thing...
on the way home, jamie and me went to this shop to see the cloths.. hahah... so exciting... we are going to wear the same top this easter!!!=P haha!! yay!!JAMIE.YO.POLLY.FLEA we shall all wear the same thing=)most importantly was really the time spend with jamie..i feel so happy and blessed!!=)

polly your song is really nice=)i love it!! thanks dear!!=)

father i thank you for all the people placed around me in my life especially my pastors,leaders,parents,siblings and friends.Each and everyone of them matters much to me...

lastly,i just want to thank you Jamie for being such a good friend and leader.. thank you for loving me so much and giving me all the advices you could. you have greatly impacted my life.most importantly, i just really wanna thank you for being there for me in all this times of need.in times when i did something foolish, when i needed someone to talk to and through this period of tears... words cannot express my love and grattitude to you.. i guess i am just so lost of words..i am the fruit of your labour of LOVE!! we all are!! I LOVE YOU!!=)

one day in his courts is better than a thousand days in the world.

hey people.. i am back!!=)
just wanna let all of u noe
nothing is gonna bring me down!!
because at the end i wanna sae:

I HAVE FOUGHT THE GOOD FIGHT
AND WIN THE RACE!!

yay!!=)
heehee.. even in times like this, thinking back on wat jamie say... i am not in the worse of case.. and it is true.. sitting down, quieting down my heart,thinking it through,i could see my mothers heart on how much she loved and cared for me..

though sometimes wat she says brings pain to my heart and tears to my eyes, it was out of the lost of what to do and found tat it was the best solution at that moment..

sitting down, talking to her, helped us understand each other better even though i still do not agree with her decision but i LOVE YOU mummy!!=) hope u like the tea i made for u!=)

Every tear you cry is precious in his eyes.He keeps every drop or tear in a bottle in Heaven and remembers what each tear is shed for.

1/4/06
todae we were in church having word challange!! it was so exciting!! haha!!after the whole thing we went for dinner and later proceeded on to far east to cut my hair... my heart was thumping real fast i seriously dont noe wat is going to become of my hair..guess wat they did... they thinned it so thinned tat i feel i got no more hair.. yo yo cut her hair too!!=) actually it is not tat bad la!!


2/4/06
todae is dress up sundae in church!!=) we were all suppose to dress like nerds.. haha! i was having such a hard time with my hair... i am trying to to look nerd la.. but i kind of didnt suceed..last night i was kinda having some problems with my mum... thank God he was there for me.. so was jamie!!=)


3/4/06
todae didnt started out really well due to many factors.. in fact it was really bad.. but through all this tough and rough times, u actually begin to treasure your daddy up there even more than before... he is always there for me.. so will he be for all of u .. in times of need.. turn to him.. and u would be able his love really sheltering u all over again.

once,my friend told me to visit a website and spotted this amazing and touching clip on how people would blame God for everything in their life but tats because they only see one side of the picture.. every story has another side... but u would only find out wat happen if u border to turn the page over.. but God will always be there protecting you.. FOREVA AND EVA!!=)

click on the cross to view the clip =)



while reading the news papers todae, my teacher was talking about the law where same sex could marry each other.. i suddenly remembered of wat Pastor Lia said of the american women who changed america's school system from starting everydae with a prayer to a normal everydae with no prayer to God. after thinking about this, it led me to this thought..In genisis, God create 1 man and 1 women... if it was in God's plan to have a man and man together, he would not have created Eve and would have another man instead... we do love this people even when they love people of the same sex..but i guess it was the passion of that women who have coze such a big change in the younger generation of america..it not only affected her own country, but it affected other people as well..
HAVE PASSION!!POWER FOLLOWS AFTER THE PASSIONATE CRY OF YOUR HEART!!=)IT WILL PASS ON AND AFFECT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU!!=)